Hopelessly Devoted To You

Chapter 12

New York, May 29, 2024.

"Because you are an amazing woman and I love you" I said sincerely.

I woke up with a shock making me sit up in bed and notice how my pajama shirt was wet.

"Fuck" I said while trying to regulate my breathing "It was a fucking dream"

I ran my hand over my neck and it was completely wet as was my entire body.

I got out of bed to change my clothes and went back to bed.

"It felt so real" I said with a sigh.

I grabbed my phone since I was finding it impossible to go back to sleep and saw that it was four in the morning.

"Fucking hell" I cursed in frustration.

I got up again and walked towards Lili's crib. I smiled when I saw how she was sleeping peacefully.

I went downstairs to go to the kitchen and pour myself a cup of hot milk to see if that would help me go back to sleep.

When I got there I laughed when I saw my brother Blake.

"Don't tell me you've just arrived?" I asked between laughs when I saw the jump he made in fear.

"Fuck, Andy" He said, putting his hand on his chest "Don't do that shit to me"

"You should go to sleep" I said walking next to him to take advantage of the fact that he had the fridge door open.

"You too" He replied, reheating a a bowl with mac & cheese.

I looked at him sadly and then I knew that he had understood.

"Come here" He said opening his arms.

I walked quickly towards him and caught myself in his arms.

"A nightmare again?" Blake asked and I nodded with my head in his neck "You know you can talk to me about anything. Even your feelings"

"I know" I answered softly while he caressed my back "Sometimes everything is very difficult for me"

"And that's why you have all of us" I heard my father say, which made us jump with fright "You are not quiet at all. Be thankful that your mother sleeps like a rock"

My father walked towards us, hugged us and kissed our heads.

"Who wants a sandwich?" He asked making us laugh.

We fell asleep at almost six am. What would have been just a sandwich ended up with the three of us making a pizza.

I woke up around eleven in the morning with a jump as I had to give Lili her first bottle.

When I went to her crib I started to panic since she wasn't there and I quickly went down to the first floor.

As I approached the kitchen I could hear my mom talking with Lili which made me smile.

"Good morning" I said, entering the kitchen.

"Good morning" My mother answered with a smile "Lili has a new diaper and she already ate"

"You could have woken me up" I said, approaching my mother to hug her and then kiss the head of my little girl who was in her chair.

"Andy, don't believe your father when he says I sleep like a rock" She said, laughing "I smelled the pizza that you guys made. Besides, I wanted to give you more time so you could rest"

"I appreciate it" I said walking towards the coffee machine.

"There are blueberry pancakes ready" My mother said "Or would you prefer a British breakfast?"