Finally Being Able To Stay Out Of Hiding

chapter 28

Edward pov

Fuck I was on a war fucking path right fucking now and I was in overly furious. I really fucking blew when I felt my wife like that!

I was going right the fuck off too! No wonder my wife calls me a killer.

Then the couple of times I fucking froze then she fucking embarrassed the fucking hell out of me like that because she fucking could and get away with it too. She had mine ass on fucking that one.

Then went back to this shit all because she was fucking alone and she fucking thought she wasn't good enough for me because of how I did that shit to her God damn it to fucking hell. But she understood it from the best friend point of view so fucking clearly and I can understand why because never fully fucking alone damn it to hell I fucking hate being a mind reader and I just wish I can fucking block it out like my wife sometimes!

That's it! I need her to somehow be able to transfer that ability or in our bedroom, our special room, security room and our office shields strong enough to be able to block my mind and everyone out areas fucking off limits when I'm with my fucking wife and we really need to fucking be alone. Oh a sign that also lights up do not enter off limits at this moment that's an order!

I put a shitty ass grin on my face! "GET THE HELL OUT OF MY FUCKING WAY NOW AND NO ONE FUCKING FOLLOW ME UNLESS YOU VALUE YOUR FUCKING LIVES RIGHT NOW AND THAT BASTARD IS NEVER ALLOWED ON THIS SHIP AGAIN AND I WANT HIS MEMORIES WIPED FUCKING CLEAN ANGEL DOC WILL EXPLAIN TO YOU FUCKING WHY AND THIS IS ALL A FUCKING ORDER AND I FUCKING MEAN IT AND EVERYONE STAY THE FUCK OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD!" I took off for the security room and secured myself and went to the computer system and I went into that computer mode since I knew exactly what I needed to and what I had to upgrade and how strong and what areas.

I even had a pencil in my mouth and that tongue slid out and I was so fucking focused and still fucking furious and now I was at myself too.

Because of how I always did that to her but I was respecting her damn it. I couldn't do that to her with people in my head like that and what I fucking heard about us or what some of the man fucking thought. Fuck!

I couldn't say anything to her either because I was fucking afraid someone would her me talking to her about it because someone was always around damn it and I always knew when they were close and so would she.

God! Never alone to fucking talk or be fucking together!

I started punching the fucking air. Fuck that makes me really fucking beyond furious and I do need a fucking stress ball relief right now because I about to boil over that way now too. How fucked up is that.

This is breaking and throwing shit! When I get like this Damn it! That was before my wife came into my life and best friend mind you.

Oh! Best friend stress relief ball for each other with clothes. Yeah that definitely would of worked into our best friend part to relieve each other stress that way because of how we both were and we couldn't have sex with the opposite sex and we couldn't do it the other way even though transfers and the charging but that wasn't us but we figure out we could release all each other stress the way only with each other and it was enough for each other without sex. Because that's what people thought it was and still is.

I really don't get it at fucking all! I am a man but I still don't get it.

If that was the fact I just go without because I got better fucking things to do.

"HEY JACK ASS I CAN HEAR EVERYTHING YOUR FUCKING THINKING! DID YOU NOT EVEN REALIZE WE OPEN I OPENED MY FUCKING MIND AND I STARTED SAYING SOMETHING TO YOU AND YOU JUST KEPT SPILLING YOUR GUTS OUT WITHOUT YOU EVEN KNOWING YOU WERE DOING IT!" My wife was laughing really hard at me and I fell on my fucking ass shocked as fucking hell when she did that shit to me.