Crushing On My Tutor

Chapter Four: A Change In Plans.

🖤~[Sasuke]~🖤

It's getting around to be that time. It's Thursday and I need to start getting ready for my tutoring session with Naruto. I won't lie, I'm kind of nervous. Well, no, I'm very nervous. He's been texting me throughout the week and even invited me to hangout with him and his friends a couple of times. Of course I declined. I can barely be alone with him and let alone all these new people that are probably as loud as him. Sounds like a heart attack waiting to happen.

But texting him has been okay. It's obvious he's not a texter, he asks me basic questions like how's my day or what I'm doing but then won't respond for like six hours after I respond. I know he said he's a bad texter but damn. It kind of makes me feel he's not as interested in me as he claims to be.

But I also don't like calling him because that makes me nervous. I like having time to think about my responses. When I'm on call I have to say something right away and it just makes me go quiet because I stress out too much.

I don't like talking much anyways.

I don't know, I've been trying not to think about him. Keeping myself busy with my studies isn't hard to do considering I'm double majoring. But that whole ex-girlfriend thing kind of got me overthinking for some reason. There's no shot with us being a thing. I hate when my mind jumps to conclusions like that. I should just keep him as a friend. It's not like I have any friends. People online have tried but I really never had the time or energy to maintain friendships.

It's my fault I'm so lonely, but I've gotten used to it. I have my brother and his girlfriend. Even though I do feel like a third wheel at times. But they say it doesn't bother them but I don't know, at my age, I should definitely have more going on and not rely on them so much socially.

I should give Naruto a chance... I say that lightly. I don't want to say he scares me, that's not the word. He's just a bit overwhelming for someone like me. I like more lowkey, quiet guys, and he's very loud, outgoing, and spontaneous. So the total opposite of what I usually like. What am I even talking about? I haven't been interested in someone for years. Sure I have like, a crush or I'm attracted to someone that walks by but that's the extent. I'm never able to interact with them. Ugh what am I even thinking? I need to get ready.

I sat down at my desk/vanity and started with my face first. I just got out of the shower and threw on a shirt and some shorts in the meantime, I'll figure out my outfit later. I stared at my face and pondered where to start. I shouldn't do anything crazy. Just fix my eye bags, fill in the ends of my brows, and maybe blush? A little mascara? I don't know, he didn't mind me wearing makeup but I don't know if that means he likes it either.

Ugh, I leaned back in my chair, covering my face with my hands. What am I doing? He's just a client. I don't need to get all dressed up to see him. He's not gay. This is all fucking stupid. He wants to be friends, just be happy with that. After I got through scolding myself I got my color corrector and put a drop under each eye and spread it with my fingers. I look crazy. I told myself before picking up my concealer to put under my eyes. I repeated the same thing as the color corrector and soon enough my eye bags disappeared.