"Hello everyone" my own voice rang into the darkness as Ciel drifted slowly and further away "we've had Ciel for 1872 days (about 6 years) that's how long we've worked and been together it doesn't seem like much but 6 years, is a long time and it's gone within a blink of the eye, and knowing that today he is retiring is really hard, knowing that I can no longer rely on him in public is quite devastating, the amount of time that we spent training together with different learning curves and trials and I can't even remember how many times we've got frustrated and wanted to quit but with the help of my wife and this program we made it through." Seeing my own body standing upon the stage made my heart race, it was like watching a recording of every movement and every word leave my own lips sank deeper into my chest.
Memories flashed around me, the laughter of joy, screams of sorrow, and the silence of sitting and watching what was around us. "Ciel was there for every event, happy one's and sad one's he was there when Navi, Hakku, hank, Jason, and Dani and many more that have walked the rainbow bridge. He has also watched other successful events like Toruk, Levi, and now Clementines Graduation. Which brings me to do this, this collar that he is wearing right now is the one I made him 2 years ago, with supposed to be white letters says service dog but now we will take this caller off and put his new one on. Even though it is a simple jester that he does not understand but we understand that he is now fully retired and will be living his golden years to the fullest until he meets with his brothers and sisters again across the rainbow bridge."
My voice fades away as the light dims upon Ciel, slowly reaching forward towards him "you aren't strong enough, are you?" a tall black figure stood Infront of me blocking my view of Ciel looking into the figure eyes seeing nothing but my reflection staring back at me "Wake up scar!" tilting my head in confusion as my body began to shake the figure that stood Infront of me wither away into the ground. "Scar!" snapping my eyes open seeing my wife her voice panicked as she stood over my sleeping body. "it's time for work, we are going to be late" quickly standing up and grabbing the nearest clothes to me a shirt with black butler and some purple pants.
My lower back started to ach with every movement I made, slightly hissing as I leaned into the wall 'I must keep going' the thoughts rang load as my apartment faded behind me and the bumpy and painful ride to work brought me to Reality of working at a desk for 9 hours and only making 14$ and hour never felt worth it. The pain of Ciel not in the back seat to come to work with me made my heart ache in pain holding back tears as once again feeling utterly alone without him.
Walking into the building I work at feeling the pain worsen with every step till I made it to my chair holding my head within my hands "are you ok?" lylace voice enters my ears as she sat down next to me, lifting my head slowly looking at her with pain lacing every movement I made "yeah, I'm ok" the dream played in the back of my mind 'you're not strong enough are you?' the words played over and over biting my lip softly 'I have to be strong no matter what' the day slowly passed by, the voices of many people who I talked to over the phone faded into one. Trying to help each person that calls felt useless when they yell and shout at me for something that I have no control over.
The pain in my lower back slowly faded away as the day started to end, my head felt dizzy as I slowly logged off my computer. Standing slowly only to hold onto my desk to hold me up right, my head started to pound as the bright lights shined over me. Touching my head as if it were going to stop my head from spinning in circles, "something is wrong" I mumbled softly hoping lylace would hear me, her eyes looked up at me as she logged off her computer, she gently touched my hand on the desk "what's wrong?" her voice was lower than usual as if someone changed the audio settings. Shaking my head softly before moving forward 'I do not want to bother her with my delusions' my thoughts rang loudly as I threw a smile upon my lips and lifted my eyes ignoring the pain as much as possible. "I'm ok, just a small headache" tilting my head gently as I slowly walked past her acting as if nothing was on my mind.
Sitting in the passenger seat with my wife driving the car, the road lights slowly started to turn on as they passed by one by one. Soon excitement ran through my body as I realized the next day was my family party, it is a tradition I have never missed, which is decorating my parents' house for Christmas which means putting the Christmas tree up while lights around the house. My mother's favorite color for Christmas is blue, which could be blinding once on the white artificial tree but beautiful when everything is put together. A small smile formed upon my face as my back slouched further into the seat to ease the pain that formed withing my spine.
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Our Journey
AdventureAt first it was hard, going from an able body to no longer being able to get out of bed mostly due to pain, depression or even no motivation, I want to disappear, I want the pain to leave my body. The loud rawer rang through my ears, 'it hasn't sto...
