Newtmas Oneshots/Prompts!

4.) Unrequited Love

"Because what's worse than knowing you want something, besides knowing you can never have it?"
---- James Patterson, The Angel Experiment

Newt's POV

I'm the type who hates cliche things.

So it's ironic that I would fall in love with my best friend.

My best friend since middle school when I moved from London. He was the hyper kid who practically bounced himself all the way to me to introduce himself.

I realized I loved him in our last year of high school, but i was too late by then. He already met Brenda and fell in love with her. They were the perfect couple.

Everybody knew they were going to get married and it was the truth. I never had a chance.

It's been five months after we graduated college and today is the day they're getting married. It hurts, but just like everyday since and from now on I will pretend to smile and act like my heart is not crushed.

I know I never told him, but c'mon not everybody is like those people in romantic movies who suddenly get this rush of courage and runs into the airport to stop the person they're in love with and confess.

The truth is people get scared that they get paralyzed, they don't get that rush of courage, and people can live their whole life keeping a secret love for someone.

I will not ruin Tommy's wedding day with my confession because i am a human being who can keep a secret love that only I know about.

Nobody has figured it out I am in love with Thomas. I guess I got better at hiding emotions as I got older. It's a good thing nobody knows, the less people that know the less pity looks you get.

I will stand behind Tommy as his best man and watch his love of his life walk down the aisle.

I'll let him go. But I will always love him, even if I find somebody i could never love them the way I loved Tommy. I'll watch him get into the just married and drive away.

I'm leaving after that. I'm moving back to London. Everybody knows, Thomas forced me to promise that I'll keep in touch. I will, but I'm never coming back and it's not only because of seeing him and her all happily married, no that's part of the reason, the other half is that I have to move on.

I have to move on because there is nothing really in this town left for me. My friends are here but we're all graduated from college already, we're all starting our lives and people do drift apart, but we all promised to try to stay in contact with each other.

I'll let Thomas go , but he will always be in my heart. He will always be the one I never had but I was deeply in love with.

I learn that some people are just not meant to be in love or have love work out for them because they're meant to remind you life is cruel and there is no such things as happy endings for everyone.

They're here to remind you of true cruelty in this world. They all love somebody who doesn't love them back and that's bloody horrible.

And I guess I'm one of them.

I hope you enjoyed this. I'm sorry this one didn't end happy with Newtmas but I was in the mood for some unrequited love.