Those Eyes...

Part 11

2 weeks later-
I still don't know what to think about this honestly.

I'm not ready to spill the beans and rant on some innocent friends.

But then again it's not healthy to let this boil over and emotionally wreck myself.

I've  already starting to go down that train wrecked track. I haven't socialized with anyone more than necessary in school.  As this school year is coming to an end, everyone has been slowly retreating from my life, it seems like.

No calls, no texts or replies to those I have sent out every now and then.

No nothing.

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I'm slowly becoming the outcast from my own friends, social groups (if any), and practically my own life.

What is the point in life if you aren't living a life? Making a difference. Worth someone else's time. Not special enough for anyone to say not one word to you?

You are just over there sitting by yourself in the corner. They see you everyday. They begin to think that saying "Hi" is enough to consider that y'all are still, 'so called' "friends". That asking if you would "help" **cough, cough** by this I mean, do all of the work on that end of year project, is considered a deep conversation.

No. That doesn't make us 'friends'. I'm sorry if this takes you off your high-horse for being popular.

Friends have long conversations. They can talk about anything, anytime. They equally help each other out. They don't take advantage of others. They  stay up texting each other til 11:30 pm and actually ask how there life is going.

Did you get a new dog? Did your grandmother just fall because of the lack of attention they get at that nursing home they pay $10,000 a month for? Did your crush talk to you today instead of ignoring you?

Your true friends could answer this stuff for you. And if you stopped being friends with them you would have to get them to swear to not spill your beans.

Those are your true friends.

You need to keep them and never let them go.

Hide them in your basement and never let them see the light of day and smell fresh air ever again.

Okay... Maybe not the last paragraph... But still.

Treat your friends with respect. Show how much they mean to you in your life everyday. Show them how blessed you are for them to sit beside of you in 4th period, and to see them arrive safely off the bus to school.

They could be gone in a blink of an eye.

So appreciate your friends. If you haven't talked or texted your friends. Stop right here, and go talk to them and find out what's going on in their life, and don't take "good", "peachy", or "okay" as an answer.

Have a blessed day and show how much you appreciate one another. For they could be gone in an instant not realizing how much they mean to you.
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A/N: This chapter was a bit depressing to write but it came from my heart.
So have a blessed day! And show how much you appreciate one another!