A Court Of Love & Sufferings

ch.12

I close the journal blinking as drops fall from my eyes, i have been crying. Now i know everything, i know who i am, what i am,what the king needs from me.It is a lot to take in.

Someone knocks on my door. Jack comes in.

"Hey, i heard you woke up this morning am sorry i couldn't come earlier i had  long queue of patients".

I realize the sun has set i spent the day reading the journal.

"How do you feel?"

"Like i should be dead"

"Hey! Don't say that it took me a lot to bring you back from the verge of death"

"The poison had spread all over your body. A little longer you would not have survived."

I remain silent my mind full of things i discovered.

"What is it? you look shaken up like you have seen a ghost. Or did you while you were sleeping like a dead?"

"My mother she left me a journal" his joking face turns serious.

"What did you find out"

"How do you know i have found out something"

"You are trembling which i know isn't because of weakness whatever it is, it has you scared. Tell me if you feel like sharing. It would help".

So i do, i tell him everything. He patiently listens.

"Wow"

"That's a lot to take in" he jokes.

"So you are a princess of sort".

"That's all you heard?" i say

"It's an important part. You are basically some type of royalty. Your grandfather was a high lord. A high lord rules over his court. So that's make you a princess".

I roll my eyes "I don't think they give that much importance to a bastard's child".

"That doesn't change the fact that you are one of the heirs to the night court.
Plus you being starborn or whatever it means that you do have the power to run a court".

"Enough about that,i don't know what to do anymore. Suddenly i have a responsibility to protect others from a possible war. I possess this new power that could turn anyone into ashes. I don't even know if i can control it on my own"

"Then learn to control it, learn to command it, learn to own it just like you did with your shadows, with your mind manipulation. Because you princess have some asses to kick. If anyone can kill the king i think it's you. I think you deserve to be the one to end him. To take your revenge, for you,for your parents,for your freedom. Do it for yourself. Make our dreams come true."

My eyes tear up as i take in his words. Freedom i want that. I need that. I can't go on living like this.

In the moment i decide i want to live.

I lean on Jack's shoulder. As he talks his words comforting me.

"When we are free i would like to live in the place my family comes from,i will take you there with me. We will see the sunrise i heard it has the best view."

"We will live happily. We will live freely".

I imagine ourselves doing so.