The submissive mushroom boy

Devy...?

⚠️TW: SELF HARM, SUICIDE ATTEMPT, mentioned eating disorder⚠️

8 days... 8 days without... Amy... Devy holds his son close while he feeds him his bottle looking at the empty second crib... Amy left this world too quickly... just like her mother... He sets Alex down in his crib after he's fallen asleep and walks back into his bedroom. He looks down at his phone seeing Kevin is calling..
"I can't.." he hits decline tears falling quickly... it starts ringing again after a moment declining it again.
"I can't let him hear me like this... I'm supposed to be strong... but I'm weak..." He walks into his bathroom and has a moment.. a moment of grabbing a razor blade and slicing his arm open numbing his pain temporarily.. he drags the razor against his arm a few more times before tossing it on the floor.. falling to the floor himself. His phone rings again this time he picks up
"Devy!" Kevin says happily into the phone
"You're alive!" The older can't keep it in..
"not for much longer..."
"What do you mean.. Devy what did you do?!" Kevin yells 
"cut myself" Devy says his vision starting to go blurry. The older faintly hears talking on the other end.. but he can't understand. not like he really wants to though... he just wants to join his daughter again... darkness consumes his vision and he flops down on the floor 

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Kevin sits by his fiancé's bed holding his hand. 
"Please wake up... I can't think about my life without you.." He says tears falling. Devy's arm is wrapped with bandages and he's being given blood to account for the blood he lost. Kyle is with Alex so Wisam and Chase can both be there to support Kevin and Devy. 
"He's still so pale..." Kevin says quietly getting a soft sigh from Wisam, not of annoyance but sympathy
"Well he is pale to begin with Kevin and hey...? He lost a lot of blood baby.." Wisam says moving in front of Kevin grabbing his chin and kissing his forehead. He moves away when he hears a groan from behind him
"Hey my love" Kevin says tears falling. Instead of talking Devy squeezes Kevin's hand gently
"W-Why didn't you tell us..? Why didn't you tell me?" Kevin asks tears falling a little faster
"I'm supposed to be the one strong for you Kevin. You have a fucking eating disorder babe! The last thing you need is to be worrying about is my dead kid" Kevin's had enough of Devy talking down on himself.. and he slaps him hard
"Will you stop?! We can both have weak moments! We are strong for each other Devin! That's what getting married means! We support each other through the hard times! We love each other regardless and we don't judge the other for being weak. Yes you're supposed to be strong for me, but you're also supposed to have moments when you are weak. Moments where you're supposed to come to me for support! Yeah I have an eating disorder, but that doesn't stop me from being a supportive partner! You realize now, your son isn't going to see you for a while?! You realize now, I'm not going to see you for a while?! You're going to have to go a fucking mental hospital until they can trust you're not going to do this stupid fucking shit again! Even if they're not going to force you in because you're an adult you need to fucking go, BECAUSE I CAN'T FUCKING TRUST IF YOU SAY YOU'RE NOT GOING TO DO IT AGAIN RIGHT NOW!" Kevin breaks down sobbing and Wisam holds him close. Devy is frozen, he didn't even think about just how doing a stupid thing like this would affect his son... how it'd affect his fiancé 
"I'm so sorry Kevin... I wasn't thinking! The only thing I fucking knew was I've been in so much pain for the past week! I didn't tell you either because I didn't want to be a burden to you.." The older says tears finally falling
"You can never be a burden to me you fucking dumbass"
"I love you Kevin.."
"I love you to Devy" Devy scoots over a little so Kevin can lay with him in the small hospital bed.
"dumbass"
"I'm your dumbass"
"better be"
"That was grossly adorable" Chase says suddenly
"I know right" Wisam agrees