Thursday

Chapter One

I was lying in my bed in our room staring out the sliding door. I turned around to the digital alarm cock and sat it was 3:27 am. "Where is he?" I wondered. I heard a slight jiggling of  door handle and then giggling. "Not again I said to no one." I swiftly slid out of my bed and went into the large walk in closet in our rooom. I heard the giggling become louder and clearer and then I heard the springs of our bed creak.

I reached over to the corner of our closet and grabbed a shoebox. I opened it and retrived my iPod and my razor. I put on "Are you Satisfied?" by Marina & the Diamonds and put my headphones in turning them up all the way. I hiked up my shorts and made five fresh cuts on my thigh. I retrived a bandage from the box and wrapped my leg. I put away my razor and bandages and then changed the song on my iPod. I put "Teen Idle" by Marina & the Diamonds on repeat and fell asleep on the ground like I always did.

"Come on babe, I promise it will be fun" "Ok, I guess I'll go" He grabbed my wrist and pulled me down the dimly lit street. We entered "The Vibe, a popular night club. He carried me past the large crowd of people dancing, past the loud speakers, whose bass shook the ground, and into a black door. On the other side of the door, there was a long white halway with white tiled floors and many doors. He dragged me further and further down the hallway. My stiletto heels clisked against floor as he kept on bringing me further and further down the hallway. He finally stopped and opened a door. The door had a sign on it. It was a cirlcle that sort of resembled a pill and had a white dove on it. When we entered the room, there were alot of girls, like twenty, dancing on small glass tables and male spectaors all around. I only recongnized one and it was Drake. He was taking a bottle to the head. He finished the botle and threw it on the ground. His eyes turned red and then he reached into his pocket.

He pulled out a small handgun and aimed at something. I wasnt sure what it was though because he was so far away. hH pulled the trigger and  I jumped onto the ground. I heard a loud thud and I turned to my side. I saw him laying on the ground and a pool of blood forming.

"No Abel, baby get up!!!"

"Val, Val, Val, get up!!" I popped my eyes open and was greeted by a blinding light. my eyes adjusted and I saw Abel standing in an open closet door with a smile on his face. "What cha doin in here babe?" he said with a confused look on his face. He did this every morning. He never remembered anything..

"Um, I was just looking for an outfit and I guess I fell asleep". I added a small laugh at the end. I always had to come up with stupid lies like this. He wlked over to me and helped me up. He pulled me into a warm embrace. He smelled fresh, like he just showered. "Why don't I take you to the cafe to get some coffee?" I simply nodded and said "Lemme shower first" He let go of me and said "Ok, but don't take too long". I giggled a little and headed into the shower. When I removed my shorts, I saw the a little blood had leaked through so I started to uwrap it. When I got it off completly, the door cracked open. I turned around terrified and came face to face with Abel. "What-what happened?" "Um..um..um.."I couldn't make up a good enough exuse so I decided to tell him the truth.

"Ok, about six months ago, you came home every night drunk and or high. You brought women every night. After a while I got used to it but then my heart could't take it. I still love you but you kept on doing this and not remebering in the morning so I somehow turned to cutting. I have done it alot and it's the only thing that makes me feel better..." I was expecting for him to say something like

'I'm sorry, please forgive me, I won't do it ever agian", but instead, he laughed. HE LAUGHED! "Oh Val, you have such a wild imgination, why don't you get go ahead a shower so we can get going?" He leaned over and brushed the side o my face with is thumb. I swiftly moved away and yelled "WHAT?? YOU THINK I'M MAKING THIS UP?? I AM TELLING THE TRUTH YOU MAN-WHORE!!". He looked shocked and then slapped me. I held my cheek and small tears escaped my eyes. "Why don't you just shut-up? Look, I have to go to the studio. When I get back home, you better have your story together, or else, I'm putting you on the street." I just gave a small nod and clenched my teeth in an attempt to stop crying.

He smiled and said "See you later" as he walked out. When I heard the door shut and lock, I broke down. I cried for 10 mintues stragiht then decided to shower. I took a long hot shower and then picked out an outfit for the day. I ended up with a gray cropped shirt, white washed shorts with rips in them and my all black. It was way relaxed compared to what I usally wear. When I finished getting dressed, I pulled my long curly brown hair into a high ponytail.

I went back into the closet and got my cellphone. I went through my contacts untill I found "Diana". I clicked "Call" and it rung out. She didnt answer so I called again and she didn't answer again. I was planning to go to the mall with her, but guess I'm going alone. We lived pretty close to the mall, so I grabbed my purse and started walking to the mall. I rembered that on the way to the mall, I would pass his studio so I decided to stop by. When I went up to his floor, before I got to his booth, I saw one of his friends Ale standing next to it. "Hey Alex, is Abel in??" "Hey Val, um, no, I mean ye I mean um.." "Why are acting so weird what's going on?" I said as I pushed past him. I looked into the window of the booth and I saw Abel and Diana kissing. His hand was up her shirt they were standing extremly close. I pressed the button that allowed you to speak into the booth and was about to start screaming, but decided to keep my cool. "Really Abel...youre hurting me again.."I whispered into the mic. Him and Diana quickly pulled apart and looked at me in shock. He quickly walked toward the door and pulled it open. He wlaked over to me and said "Val, its not what it looks like. I was just--" "Abel, cut the crap. I see your cheating on me. It's ok, I'll just be in my way home and when you get home, when ever that may be, I'll be gone." I began to storm out of the room when he grabbed my arm. "Val, wait..." I pulled my arm away and ran out of the building. I know he had been cheating on me like this before, but the fact that he was cheating on me with my best friends and he was aware of what was going on, it hurt me more.

I ran all the way to our, scracth that, his loft and gathered my stuff. I had to much stuff to carry with me, so I just grabbed about half of it. I packed it into my biggest bags and headed out into the street. I had no idea where I was going, and some how, my feet made it's way to one of my friends,Sarah, house who I havent talked to in a while. I rang her doorbell hoping she was home. She opened the door after a few seconds and looked kinda shicked to see me.

"Hey Val, what brings you here?" she said in a confused tone. "Um, I..." I didnt know what to say. "Did you finally catch him??" I nodded as tears began to fall down my face. She grabbed my hand and pulled me inside. She guided me to her dining room table as more and more tears fell. When I got there I sat in one of the chairs and cried my eyes out. "Sarah, whose was it?" I heard a sort of gruff male voie say. "Just one of my friends. Were in the dining room" she replied. A tall dark skinned male entered the room. "Valerie, this is Tyler, Tyler, this is Valerie" Sarah said as she pointed to each of us.We both waved at each other and he headed back into his room.

"So, Val, why don't you tell me what happened?" I let out a huge breath and then explained the whole story. I cried a bit through it, but when I was finished, I didn't feel like crying anymore. "I understand honey...If you want to stay with m, I have an extra room." "Really, you'll let me stay with you?" She nodded and I jumped up and gave her a big hug. She huggd back and we stayed like untill the doorbell rang. We pulled apart and I follwed her as she went to answer the door.

She pulled it open and on the other side stood...Abel. "Listen Val, I am really sorry I--" "Abel, I don't wanna hear it." I walked away and I heard him sigh in defeat. I heard the door close and I just stood still letting all of our memories run through my brain.