Caught in the Role

Chapter 6

Author's Note
ANG KABANATANG ITO AY MAY RATED SPG STRIKTONG PATNUBAY AT GABAY NG MGA MAGULANG ANG KAILANGAN. PERO HINDI NAMAN KAYO MAKIKINIG KAYA BAHALA NA KAYO D'YAN.
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Saddria

Regine's POV

We're sitting on a log in front of a bonfire we made by the sea. My dress was flowing with the gentle breeze. He made me wear a white dress, and I did.

I didn't even consider where on earth he took it from but it was my size. And it was much comfortable than my previous clothes.

The fire was crackling and the waves were dancing. Silence enveloped the quiet night. Dinala niya ako dito pero hindi naman kami nag-uusap. There was a silent understanding that even if we don't talk. We were contented with each other's presence.

I felt him scooting near me before enveloping me in his arms.

"Premiere night na bukas. It will be the last time we'll see each other Martee." He said as he placed his gead on my shoulder. I moved my head so that we would be more comfortable in our position. And he did to. We qere adjusting to each other's warmth until we found the perfect position of our bodies.

"I'll miss you." He whispered in my ears.

"I'll miss you too." I replied.

"Martee let's run away together. Itatakas na kita dito." I chuckled st his sudden weird invitation. Sana ganun nga kadaling iwan lahat ng ito. Sana nga pwede akong sumama sayo Lance.

"Loko." With all the things I had in my mind that was the only thing I could say.

"Martee, seryoso ako. Kung papayag ka, I'll take you to the states. We'll get married, build a business together. We'll start a new life away from all of this." Nang sabihin niya iyon ay naguluhan ako. Anong ibig niyang sabihin sa alok niya iyon.

"What are you saying Lance?" I asked as I turned around to face him. He looked at me straight in the eye as he held my hand.

"Hindi ko alam kung nararamdaman mo, o kung nakikita mo. Pero mahal na kita Regine. Hindi bilang si Martee o kung sino man. I love you Regine." Niyakap niya ako pagkatapos niyang magtapat. I was confused, I didn't know what to say.

Tinanggal ko ang pagkakayakap niya sa akin at tumayo. "You can't, you must be kidding. Alam mong hindi pwede." Sabi ko. Tears started to well up in my eyes.

"Oo, alam kong hindi pwede. Oo, gago ako kase kahit alam kong hindi pwede gusto ko pa ring ipilit dahil mahal na mahal kita. I've fallen for you real hard Reg. And never say that I'm just joking, dahil hindi birong mahalin ka Regine. Hindi birong mahalin ka habang nagmamahal ka ng iba." He said, his tears drenched his face. His voice quivering with every sincere word he utters.

"Bakit mo'ko pinapahirapan ng ganito?" I said as I teared up. One tear streamed my face and the next thing I knew humahaguhol na ako.

He tried to hold me but I squirmed with his every touch. Para bang isang kasalanan ang mahawakan niya ako't mahawakan ko siya.

"Marami tayong masasaktan." Nahihirapang sabi ko as I looked deeply into his eyes hoping that all of this wasn't real.

"Alam ko, and call me selfish but I don't care anymore. Mahal kita, at kung pwede lang ako nalang si Lance at ikaw nalang si Martee uli. Mas madali sana. Wala sanang masasaktan. But yet again Reg, ako lang 'to si Piolo, peej, peejyong o kung ano mang itawag nila sakin. Pero iisa pa rin ang tintibok ng puso ko at ikaw yun." One step at a time, lumapit siya at niyakap ako. All I could do was cry.

"S-sana nga, sana nga si Martee nalang ako." I whispered.

Bumitaw ako sa pagkakayakap namin at tinulak siya palayo. "Pero hindi Lance. I am Regine, and you're Piolo. And i. This lifetime, hindi pwedeng maging tayo." I said as I turned my back on him and started walking to God know where.

Gusto ko lang munang lumayo. Kase iilang pangungumbinsi nalang at baka bumigay na ako. Mahal ko si Piolo, oo inaamin ko na. Tanga na kung tanga, pero mahal ko na rin siya.

Hinilamos ko sa mukha ko ang mga kamay ko. Fuck!

Napalingon ako sa maingay na paghampas ng alon sa baybayin.

I think I need a dip.

I didn't hesitate any longer. I walked to the water and once it touched me it was game over. I knew the waves won. Nagpaanod ako sa tubig as I swam my frustrations.

I wanted to shout and scream. But only muffled cries escaped my mouth. I stopped swimming when I got tired at nagpalutang lutang nalang muna sa tubig habang pinagmamasdan ang madilim na kalangitan.

Bakit ba kase ang hirap magmahal?

Bakit ngayon pa dumating si Piolo kung kailan may dapat na akong pakasalan?

I closed my eyes pero agad ko ding namulat iyon nang maramdaman kong may humila sa paa ko. I tried to swim away hut panic made it harder.

Something grabbed my hand and I wanted to scream but when I felt soft lips on mine I realized it was Piolo. He stopped kissing me and looked at me with sad eyes.

"Kahit ngayong gabi lang Reg, please mahalin mo'ko." He said as he cried. My heart was breaking for the man I love. Sana pwedeng habang buhay kitang mahalin. Pero hindi, I'm sorry.

I made the move to kiss him, and he kissed me back with the same passion. At first it was gentle, but then after a few minutes it got deeper. We kissed each other as if there was no tomorrow.

And there really was no tomorrow.

Ngayong gabi lang.

His kisses started going lower and his hands roamed my body under the water and all I could do was moan.

I kissed his forehead as he started kissing my breast. I pulled him back up for another intense kiss.

He kissed my neck that allowed me to whisper in his ears.

"Make love to me, Lance."

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