JUST CREEPIN'

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JUST CREEPIN'

PIERRE MURRAY
NOVEMBER 10th, FRIDAY

"GIRL IM SURPRISED you actually came today. You always flake on me when you say you wanna come to the gym wit me. What changed?" Brionne looked at me curiously.

She was the only friend I had besides bam. I know I had told him he was my only friend, but I was kind of over exaggerating in order to guilt trip him.

Don't get me wrong, my heart was literally in shambles two days ago when he cut me off.

I didn't think it would last long but I'm still on the block list.

Looking back at it, I really should've went about it differently. Honestly, I didn't even react how I was supposed to.

I let my jealousy over cloud my judgement, and bam didn't like it. I couldn't believed I cried actual tears in front of him.

I'm so embarrassed, but I was going to make a come back, and I was for sure that he would come running to me instead of my cousin.

He would regret the way he treated me on Wednesday.

"Girl, I don't know I really feel like I lost myself. I need to shed a few pounds." I admitted, using my nail to scratch my head. My hair was in a curly ponytail for the first time in forever.

Truthfully, I was adamant on loosing a few pounds in order to reinvent myself.

Me being 5'4 I was on the shorter side, but I had a really nice body. My C-cup breasts sat up pretty, and my stomach wasn't flat but I had a butt that poked out further than my pudge to perfect my shape, so my stomach didn't even matter.

Like my momma, I had a light-medium fair skin tone. I felt like my lips were a normal size but I would love if they were bigger. So, I knew I wasn't ugly for sure, I just clearly wasn't what bam went for.

My looks had to be the reason.

Me and him connected on a different level, so I knew my personality could reel him in. I just had to get up to par.

I noticed jourie always had on pretty outfits, her eyelashes were always done, and her nails. She had this different type of confidence, but I didn't want to fake it. I want to actually have that confidence so, I was going to make sure I felt confident for real.

"What do you mean you lost yourself?" Brionne questioned me, and I wanted to roll my eyes at the thought.

"I don't know, I think I'm fat." I responded truthfully. It really was how I felt, no matter how much someone tried to flip it around, I could've been smaller.

"Girl you not fat, what the fuck are you talking about? You is cornbread collard greens thick boo." She snapped her fingers hyping me up.

"Nah, I think I gained a little too much." I nervously laughed.

"I mean so what, that don't take away from your beauty. Plus, I'm not surprised, you and bams favorite spending time is trying out new food places. All he do is feed you and thicken you up." She jested.

I felt a ping at my heart thinking about him, and the possibility of us never doing things like that again. Me and him had a genuine friendship and I just didn't understand how he could ruin something so pure like that.

Playfully rolling my eyes I pulled my Apple Watch up to my face. "Girl, don't even speak of him in my presence anymore, it's really fuck him right now." I huffed.

"Girl what? Fuck bam? Tell me more!" She playfully squealed causing me to laugh.

"It's so much, let's get on these treadmills first. I'll tell you everything if you tell me your meal plan." I joked, but part of me was very serious. I was serious about shedding some pounds.