One time ❤️

Kelsey

Tw sa mention
CHLOE POV:

I opened my eyes slowly and looked up from my pillow. Lucy and Keira were both sat upright next to me. Lucy had still got one hand resting on my side. I wasn't sure if she thought I was going to run away from her but I definitely did not have the energy for that, and to be honest she made me feel so safe. I feel terrible for what I said to her yesterday but I know a single apology doesn't always cut it.
I feel worse that I didn't bother moving from the floor and Lucy had to see me in that state.

I looked down at my arm and noticed it was bandaged up. I smiled gently but then returned to my non enthusiastic face that had been glued to me since yesterday.

It was a weird feeling. Almost like a new identity had taken over me. I felt dead inside making me not be able to pull a different facial expression for more than a second and any chance of me crying was gone. It sounds weird but I genuinely miss being able to cry. It was a quick, pain free way to express my emotions and now that was gone.

"Morning Chlo" Lucy said in a gentle voice.
I looked up at her and I saw her frown slightly. I feel drained and I must look it too. "Morning mum, morning kei" before Keira replied she brang me in for a massive hug.
"We're never letting you go" Keira stated.

I don't know if they worked it out themselves or if Leah told the-
"Leah told me you wanted to kill yourself Chloe" oh.
"A lot of things started to make sense after that. Your eating, your constant take in Lucy's hoodies and when you offered to give away your favourite bracelet to Jill because you didn't think you would be here much longer" fuck this. As much as I wanted to up and leave I couldn't be assed. I fell back into the bed before getting pulled into Lucy's arms.

"We love you so much" she placed a gentle kiss on my forehead before I buried my head into her neck.
"I love you both" I mumbled. Lucy gave me a quick squeeze so I knew she heard me and then resumed our hug.

"I've decided to take the day off of training so I can be with you." If she had told me that yesterday I would of said I was fine and for her to go but today I completely accepted defeat. "thanks" I said into the crevice of her neck, hardly audible.

Keira got up and took her clothes to the bathroom to get dressed and ready for the day. She then hugged us both goodbye and set off for training.
"I'm sorry I've made u miss training but I really need you mum" I looked up at her.
"It's okay baby, it was my decision. I know you need me and I'm glad you can finally tell me that. I'm here darling."

I sunk back into her grip and asked "can we watch a movie mum?" I looked up at her and she had a humongous smile plastered onto her face. "Of course we can!" She stated, clearly happier.

She put 'moana' on. It was my favourite film and she new me too well. Half way through the film I got up to use the toilet. Lucy looked almost scared to loosen her grip on me but knew that she would have to at some point.

I went to the toilet and soon realised my razor had been hidden or taken away. So had the paracetamol I had shoved too the back of the cupboard after getting it from the office to supposedly 'help a staff member out'.

I walked out of the bathroom and climbed back into the covers. Lucy straight away pulled me into her arms and then pressed play on the film.

Knock knock*

I looked up at Lucy with fear in my eyes.
"I'm sure it's just one of the girls. Can I let them in sweetheart?" She asked gently.
"Yeah okay" I said, putting a brave voice on.