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Dr*gs

CHLOE POV

We go home today. I hadn't managed to find Leah around the last few days so I made it my mission to find her today. Well that's if I can get out of bed.
"Chloe it been two days I'm worried, please get up baby"
I stared blankly at my mum. She was right, I needed to get up but I just felt so down. This has happened before and I'm scared of falling back into the place I once was so badly trapped in. Depression is like a cave. It's dark, gloomy and isolated. I didn't really know much about it until I heard Keira and Lucy having a discussion back before camp.
I could tell they were worried so for a few days I got out of bed and put on a smile. This time I just can't. My body feels as if it's closing down organ by organ. I've only gotten up for the toilet and for a drink. I just can't be assed to do anything.

"Mum I don't want too. Can you get Leah please?"
She sighed and nodded her head reaching for her phone.

"Hey le... yeah... can you come up. Thanks"
After around 5 minutes Leah walked in the room.
"Hey kid" she smiled down at me sitting on the edge of my bed.
"I just wanted to say thanks, for being there when, you know"
Leah brought me in for a hug and lifted me up.
She took me out of bed and placed me down next to Lucy.
"It's okay kiddo. Meet you downstairs in 30"

Lucy bent down infront of me so we were at eye level. And she pulled me into her.
"Chloe darling"
Ow fuck.
My stomach is killing me. She had pressed against my stomach with her body and I think my shirt is stuck in my cut. Shit.
She moved away and it ripped.
"OW"
Lucy looked at me worried and I grabbed my stomach.
She went to lift my shirt but I escaped her grasp and ran to the bathroom.
What do I do?
"Chloe babe. I know you lied about having a stomach ache the other night. What's wrong darling?"
I didn't answer instead just stared blankly at myself in the mirror.
Am I really that ugly? Oh my days.
"Mum I think my ribs playing up again. That x-ray might have been wrong.
The month of the incident Lucy and Keira had taken me to get my rib checked and it came back as clear. It had stopped hurting after a couple days of numbing cream and I had been able to get on with every day life again.
"We can get it checked out again"
She replied.

——-

Car ride home

I was sat in the back of the car, AirPods in, listening to whatever came on.
I muted my music after hearing my name being mentioned.
"How do you think Chloe will deal with a baby sibling?" Kei stated
"I think she'll love it! We just need to make sure we still give her loads of attention. Plus I think she'll love barca"
Lucy added

I was about to turn my music up when I heard my name once again. This time Lucy was speaking directly to me. I pretended I couldn't hear her the first time so she didn't get suspicious of me listening in but answered on the second.
"Yeah?"

"I don't think it's a good idea to meet up with Kelsey again. I'm coming with you"
Lucy said.

"No your not. I'll be fine. I told you mum, it was my bad anyways I shouldn't have punched her. She's been texting me and she's genuinely sorry"
I didn't fucking punch the girl, but that's what Lucy got told and I knew I had to go.

"It's not your fault"
"Yep it is"
"Chl-

I turned my headphones to full volume and just blanked out everything else. I don't really care what happens to me anymore. If Kelsey's ordered assassins this time oh fucking well.
———/
2 days later (at home)

"Chloe I spoke to Julie she said Kelsey can come round our house instead of you going out alone, I think it's a good idea."
I couldn't be bothered to argue so instead just nodded my head.

"Kei how long till the baby?"
I asked.

"About 3 weeks now sweetie"
Keira had been sat around ordering Lucy round the house. It was quite funny really.

Knock knock*
She's here. Kelsey is here.

I sat down next to kei, sticking my nails into my palm praying it was a dream.
"Chloeeee, hey girl! I got us nail sets and hair chalks to use while we're here. I also thought it would be fun to go to trinkon (local park) later and have a kick about"
I hated this. How can one person be so fucking manipulative.
"Yep sounds fun"
I walked up stairs with Kelsey and as soon as my door clicked shut she dropped her fake act and her evil spark shone in her eyes.
She had this malicious grin like you see in the movies and I started to get goosebumps.

"You see this?" She stated while showing me the picture of my self harm that I had been forced to do because apparently 'If you don't want to be hurt. hurt yourself'
"This is pathetic Chloe. PATHETIC! that's why we're going down to the park later. And don't worry you won't be getting sexually assaulted again, but I do have someone new for you too meet"
I stared down at the ground before she added "make some more marks then. I'll watch"
She pulled out a razor from her bag and handed it to me.
My leg was the only uncovered place so, that's what I did.
"Deeper pussy"
I did as she said and the cuts went from a bloody red to a plain white. Fuck.
How deep had I gone?

——
It was time for we and Kelsey to go and 'kick a ball about'. She led me to another dark alleyway, her nails dug into my arms as her way of guiding me.
"Ay Kels this is er?"
This mysterious looking bloke said. He had dark brown hair and looked homeless. His beard was long and disgusting and his speech was terrible.
"Yes. Load her up"
The man walked over to me and handed me bags full of dr*gs.
I took them and watched closely as Kelsey handed the man £200.
"Where did you get the money?" I asked cautiously
"Your mums purse" she replied smugly before leading me to the park.
"Those are for the pain" Kelsey said as she pointed to the bag.
"What pain" I said as if I believed that was it for the day. A slightly older man then grabbed me from behind and started punching me behind a tree. He threw a kick at my stomach which killed as it was already laced with cuts.
He threw me into the tree, causing my head to bleed. 
Everything went black and I woke up late at night. I don't know what the time is but by the looks of the sky, it's late.

When I regained consciousness fully I walked over to where Kelsey was sat.
"Smoke some w33d, then we're leaving"
I couldn't be bothered to argue. I took so much, I started to see flashing lights.
I haven't felt this happy in so long!
I skipped home with Kelsey walking behind me.

I walked in the front door and was met with a worried Lucy. "Heyyyyyyyyyy mummmm" Lucy stared at me.
"Can we get pizza???!!!"
"Go to bed." Lucy stated, clearly furious.
I heard my mum screaming at Kelsey from upstairs but I was on such a high I didn't care. I miss being happy so bad.

——-

I woke up in the morning with the fattest headache. There was a w33d stench filling my room and I felt disgusted.  Who had been smoking?
As much as I wanted to I couldn't move.
My ribs ached, my stomach killed and my head was ponding. I stayed in my bed and didn't move a muscle.
Lucy is gonna kill me.

"Lucy it's not her fault"
I heard Keira calmly say from downstairs.
"THOSE FUMES ARE NO GOOD FOR THE BABY"
Lucy retorted
"Babe-
"No I can't have this. I know it's not Chloe's fault but I'm going to murder Kelsey. Who does she think she is?"

As bad as I felt I had to shower. I dragged myself out of bed and got in the shower. I managed to spray my aerosole in the room as well to mask the smell.

"Mum please don't shout, I hit my head hard yesterday and well, I don't know what happened after that"

Writer

IM SO SORRY! This took ages to get out 😭 I've been really busy recently but should be able to most more frequently now!