𝒀𝒂𝒌𝒔𝒉𝒂 (𝖳𝗁𝖾 𝖴𝗇𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝖬𝗂𝗋𝖺𝖼𝗅𝖾)

51.Home

Yaksha's POV

"How the time flies no? Just few months ago,you were here,in my place." Rajeshwari smiled but it wasn't one with the happy feelings.It was the sad one,filled with aggression and betrayal. I don't know what I would've done if I was in her place because she is so brave!

"I know right.And just like I found my peace despite all hardships you will too.Because you are one determined woman and if you chase happiness it will come after you."

"Always so optimistic." She shook her head.

One of the girls was helping her wear mahavar while the other helped with her jewelry. My heart clenched because she looked divine,like a true Rajput princess in her red lehenga but not content.

"Shall we run away if he's not handsome enough?You would like a handsome man after all right?" I tried to make her mood lighter.

She chuckled. "You definitely should keep the carriage ready."

I tried to smile too my jaw hurt because my husband did exactly what he promised he would do.Kneeled me on the bed before making sure I take every inch of him in my mouth to seek pleasure. I almost regretted my decision to tease him in the morning before he pushed me down taking me in one go stretching me with his delicious length giving me orgasms to count on fingers.

My thighs involuntarily clenched over that thought while wetness was felt between them and my stomach churned in guilt seeing how I was thinking about my husband and his dick right at this moment. Gosh I don't say this enough but I am sick!

"You look gorgeous!" I said as she stood up from her chair while placing a dot of black kohl behind her ears to protect her from evil eyes.

"Gorgeous enough to murder someone?" She smiled.

"Huh?" My brows furrowed.

"I am kidding.Don't worry."

"She came to my chamber this morning." She whispered.

"Who-oh." I realised she was talking about her mother.

"I denied to meet her at all. I didn't have it in me you know? I felt like I would melt into puddles by her words or she would manipulate me with her twisted words. I haven't seen her since that day.And despite everything she is my mother after all and going through this day without having her by my side wasn't something I imagined at all. And I don't have my father to add more."

"Rajeshwari..." I squeezed her in my arms.I wanted to say everything will be okay but at this point I don't even know if it would happen.

"You can seek her warmth just for this once.You can be selfish just for today Rajeshwari.It's okay to crave your mother on a day like this." I made her look at me

"No.I know it's natural to feel this way maybe but it's not okay. I can't let her get into my head,especially after knowing she murdered my father,her own husband and tormented you all your life. I can't seek her shelter and show how weak how am.No,I refuse."

"I never blamed you." I whisper.

"You should.After all somewhere along the way she did all this because of me and my involvement is there intentionally or not." She looked down.

I tugged her face "Look at here Rajeshwari.You will fall behind if you keep dwelling upon these things. You said you don't want to get tangled with her words but somehow you are tangling your own thoughts by blaming yourself.Look ahead and live your life,without any remorse.Because you aren't the one to blame."