I had just come out of surgery and woke up to Katie stroking my hair, 'hey gorgeous, how are you feeling?' She said softly, 'Not great' I said tearing up looking at all the metal sticking out of my leg made me feel sick, she lifted my head up and kissed me softly the doctor walked in 'ah y/n your awake' he handed me some crutches and a wheel chair 'crutches for when your in and around your house and a wheelchair for when your out and about, come back in 6 months we will take all of that out and then after let it heal and recover for a additional 3 months you should be back to normal!' He said with a smile I just looked down sadly I signed the discharge papers and Katie helped me into my wheelchair carefully . The doctor gave Katie my meds for the pain I need to take every morning and night. We arrived back at the training ground and Katie pushed me in. Everyone came over to me and hugged me 'alright girls give her chance to breathe!' Katie stated. I sat their silently not wanting to speak , less immediately realised I was sad and went out the room for a bit taking to Katie ' Katie their is something you need to know about y/n.' 'What's up?' She questioned concerned. ' when y/n is struggling she doesn't want to speak to anyone , she will say she's fine but she won't eat, sleep and she will try to drink alcohol to get rid of her emotions so we need to look out for her.' Katie looked shocked ' don't worry we will help her through this .' They both smiled and went back out and put y/n next to Jonas as the girls trained.
'U ok y/n?' He asked I nodded not wanting to speak to anyone I got up out my chair and used my crutches to hop off without anyone realising I went to the cafeteria and got some alcohol that was stored behind the desk and went to the bathroom, I drank the whole bottle and slowly made my way back to the wheelchair. Jonas saw me 'where did u go?' I slurred , 'to the t-toilett' he looked at me funny and just thought it was bc I was on strong meds, so he thought nothing of it.
2 months later.
I was still in a bad place, I can't remember the last time I ate or slept properly and I hadn't spoke to anyone properly , Everone was worried about me and I just denied everything they were saying and said two simple words 'I'm fine' that's all I have said for the past month, to make stuff worse, Mapi has been messaging me horrid things like I should k!ll myslef and I'm not good enough and I should starve myslef as I'm 'overweight' and also my farther recently passed away, he lived in Manchester, I hadn't told anyone about it and I have recently just cried and cried and I wouldn't tell anyone why later that evening Katie came up to my room. ' please tell me what's wrong love I just want to help you.' She pleaded I nodded my head ' promise me you won't tell anyone.' That was the first time I had spoke in weeks. She said 'I promise' and I just broke down in her arms , 'My dad died K he's gone I can't do anything about it and I didn't even get to say goodbye, now recently Mapi , my ex had been messaging me horrible things Katie and I can't cope anymore I haven't eaten or slept in weeks and my only solution to all this would be to distract myself and play football but I can't even do that anymore because of my stupid ankle and I just can't do it anymore K i don't know what to do!' She held me in her arms , ' I'm so sorry my love about your dad especially but the rest I can deal with I can help you I know your dad is gone and it's gonna be hard but I will help you and with Mapi I will deal with her don't worry and I will make you some food and we can take things one step at a time I will get you through this y/n I love you.' 'Love you too K' I hand her my phone she looks through the texts with Mapi and I can see her face change. She kisses my forehead and calls her .
Katie POV*
Mapi awnsers~ what do you want y/n you fat bitch
Katie~ STFU you Spanish B!tch before I fly over and break your neck you understand you don't ever even dare contact y/n ever again or you will have me to awnser to.' she says in a strong aggressive Irish accent.
Mapi~ fine whatever
Katie ~ that's what I thought. I hang up
Y/ns POV*
Wow I love Katie I say in my head listening to what she said to mapi I haven't felt that good in months , Katie came into my room holding a bowl of pasta, I smiled 'thanks K' 'no problem gorgeous' she sat next to me smiling as I ate my first meal in a long tome. It felt amazing after I finished I cuddled into Katie and fell asleep in her arms I felt safe like all my worries disappeared. I woke up after having a full nights rest to my phone ringing, it was the funeral service, I arranged the funeral to be next Monday in Manchester , I was in charge of it all as him and my mum were divorced I invited lots of his close friends from work and places and I set the theme to be a traditional black with a splash of red because he was a huge man United fan. I told Katie about it all and she said she would come with me and support me I smiled and hugged her. I go downstairs with Katie and see less on the sofa I whisper to Katie to explain what happened to less as she is my best friend and deserves to know, she nods and I go back to my room and sip on some water until less goes into my room and hugs me tight. 'Hey y/n' 'hey less, i was gonna ask you if you also wanted to come to my dads funeral with me and Katie as you did know him and I wanted a bit of extra support.' I asked shyly , she smiled and hugged me 'of corse I will!' She said gently and then left to go to bed Katie came to my room and snuggled up to me .
Skip to Monday- funeral day-
I put on my black dress and a black blazer with red socks and some black trainers to follow the splash of red theme, Katie wore a black suit with a red hat and less had a black dress and a red handbag we all went to the limo and drove to Manchester. As the service went on it got to the point for me to make my speech, I stood up and hopped to the podium. I took a deep breath, ' Hi everyone thanks for coming, to celebrate the life of Craig. My dad, he was a kind gentle soul with a passion for football he has always supported me through my good and bad times and has seen me grow and make him proud it kills me to say this but yes he was a man united fan hence the splash of red dress code . Everyone laughs . It was lovely to grow up with him being there for me and to have such a amazing farther figure by my side as much as it pains me to know that he's gone, I try to think positive that he had a happy life and it was full of many great memories I will forever cherrish . I tear up a bit, and my biggest regret is not being by his side to say goodbye as he took his last breath. My voice was starting to break , that is something I will never live down . Thank you for attending have a good rest of your day. As I say that I just sit by his coffin and cry, everyone has left and it's just me Katie and less left as the funeral director came in, ' I need to take him away now sorry but you have to say goodbye. He said quietly, I said my goodbyes and we got back in the limo to drive home. I cuddled up to Katie. ' me and less are proud of you Y/n your speech was beyond beautiful and you did amazing.' I smile at them.
