Me and Katie have recently made our relationship public and everyone has been accepting and happy for us other than a few haters and of course Leah. She hasn't spoke to me or even acknowledged me other than her giving me a few dirty looks here and there, I haven't taken the hate well from a few people online they have been commenting on my Instagram posts mostly judging my weight, I haven't been eating as much as normal and I don't think anyone has noticed, I was walking down the corridor and I bumped into someone and they spilt there blackcurrant all down my white Nike t-shirt, I look up and see it's Leah I don't say anything other than keep my head down and keep walking neither does she but she smirked at me almost as if it was on purpose, like wtf is her problem she was the one fucking with two girls at once not me. I ran to the room chucked my shirt on the floor and locked my self in the bathroom, I begin smashing up the wall with my fists Katie looked confused and jumped up after me 'baby what's up let me in please.' I don't reply but just open the door showing no emotion. 'I'm fine.' 'Do u wanna talk about what happened.' I shake my head and get into bed. She gives me a sympathetic smile but she can see I'm angry and don't wanna talk. So she leaves me be, The next morning we are going down to training, we do a few laps and drills but I don't speak to anyone not even Katie. We are having a match at the end and i jump up for a header , I get shoved in my back by someone and I smash my head into the post . I feel the blood run down my head but I don't react I just stand up as if nothing happened. It looked like this,
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Everyone looked at me concerned and shocked by my response other than Leah, the one who pushed me I just keep playing until Jonas realised that I was bleeding badly and pulled me to the side 'Y/n u alright?' I nod 'Yeah I'm fine.' I wipe my head again but it keeps running down my head and I carry on until trying has finished. ' you ok baby?' Katie asked me concerned 'I'm fine why wouldn't I be?' I say with no emotion. She just nods and knows I'm not ok and she walks off. The thing with me and Katie is we both get angry every so often and we need a few days to cool off, it's mutual and we both know we need to let each other cool off . The medic came and sorted my head out and I had a few stitches on my face. I was still showing little emotion with everyone as my mental health was playing up again. Jonas knows about everything going on and he let me go off on sickness terms I go to stay at my mums for a few days, I told my mum everything that was going on. She understood me and she told me to go over to the beach where me and my dad used to go and clear my head I thanked her and I got in my car and drove over to the beach I just sat there for a while and took it it. I missed my dad so much it's his death anniversary in a couple days and I don't know what to do with myself I'm really bad at the minute and I just go to the local shop and buy 2 bottles of vodka and drink them quickly and lay down on the park bench and fall asleep, I wake up to the beach waves crashing and I get my phone out and realise I had 23 missed calls 10 from Katie , one from my mum and a few from the Arsenal girls, I just sighed and turned of my location. I lay on the beach for the rest of the day and slept in my car. Katie Pov:
Im really worried about y/n she hasn't contacted anyone in days and she has turned of her location I'm really worried about her . So is everyone, I think I had an idea where she was so I got up and drove there. I saw y/n sat on the beach with a few alcohol bottles by her side and she looked exhausted and ill you could tell she has been crying for a while as-well then it clicked to me it's her dads death anniversary tomorrow, as well as everything going on with Leah it must be a lot for her. I went up to her and didn't even speak I just held her in my arms and she sobbed. The poor girl was as light as a feather she hadn't eaten in days I could tell I picked her up and carried her back to my car, less was at our three's house and I didn't want to worry her so I took her back to the training ground I carried her in the doors and sat her in the changing rooms I helped her shower and get dressed. She was lifeless and it broke my heart, I took her to the canteen and got her some bread as it wasn't too much but gives her a bit off energy she took a few bites and left it. I hugged her 'I'm proud of you y/n I know it's hard at the minute but you have to push through. As we was walking back to the car I saw Leah walking with Jonas and I think they both saw her. Jonas looked confused and upset with how she was and Leah looked guilty and worried at the same time . Neither of them approached us and I took her back to the house and slept with her her holding her close.
