It's 3 days until the ballon Dior ceremony and I still haven't been invited to go.. at this point a lot of the Arsenal squad have been asked and I was losing hope. I decided to message Katie,
Katie ❤️
Me: hey k do u wanna hang out later I'm not feeling great recently I need a distraction xx
Katie: corse love what time? And why what's up?
Me: 12? And I'll talk to you about it later x
Katie: kk see u then baby ❤️
I had a shower and put on my white fox tracksuit, and headed to my car I put on the stereo and drove to Katie's, I knocked on the door and she swung the door open and hugged me 'hey baby come in!' I hugged her back and walked in the house with her,
We sat and small talked for a while, then she brought it up,
K: so what is it that made u sad earlier bub?
Y/n: it's just -I sigh - everyone has been asked to go to the ballon Dior ceremony already and I haven't... I'm loosing hope K.
K: shut the fuck up. You really think after the season you have had that you're NOT going to get invited! *She chuckles and holds my hand*. I would be surprised if you didn't get top 3. Just as she finishes talking my phone buzzes off,
K: there you go....
I chuckle and answer ,
'Hello?' 'Hey Y/n this is Sandra Arnold calling from FIFA direct and we would like you to come to the award ceremony this weekend in France.' I smile and look at Katie, 'I'll be there!' She says bye and hangs up.
Skip to Sunday
Me, Katie , less and Kyra arrive in our taxi and get out they lead the way and me and Katie follow behind our fingers locked together. We stop for photos at the end of the red carpet and take our seats inside,
No one's POV
The awards are as followed~
Young men's player of the season 2024: Kobbie Mainoo
Men's ballon d,or 2024: Jude Bellingham
Women's young player of the season: Linda Cicedo
Men's team of the year: Real Madrid
Women's team off the year: Arsenal,
Women's ballon D,or: Y/n Y/n/l,
As he said my name my heart dropped I sat there frozen for a few seconds until Katie pushed me up and I walked on stage and shook Thierry Henry's hand, I held the shiny ball in my hand as I went to the mic for a speech, 'I um sorry in advance I didn't expect this so I haven't prepared anything. I chucked a little wiping my tears, First off all I would like to thank my teammates and staff I wouldn't be stood here now if it wasn't for them, secondly I would like to thank my parents all tho my dad isn't here anymore I know he is watching from above and I wouldn't be stood here in this room let alone stage if it wasn't for them, and wow the fans you guys have shown me so much support at arsenal and I love you all for that I'm a true gunner for life finally I would like to thank No one other than Katie McCabe my favourite person, she has supported me the day I set foot in London and we have had our ups and downs she has always been by my side. Thank you!
I step down from the stage and sit back in my chair and I hug Katie.
K: what did I tell you baby!
We just got back to London and I am feeling quite overwhelmed with everything that has happened recently and I don't think it's fully sunk in that I am currently the best player in women's football. I had just recently started training again because of my ACL and I'm slowly getting back into my old form.
I went to training a bit earlier do a bit extra and the girls had slowly started showing up,
Beth: HEY MRS BALLON DOOOOOORRRR Beth bellowed across the gym
Katie: relax Beth ,she doesn't want to make a big deal out off it Katie said sarcastically.
Y/n: haha very funny now let me fished my set and we can move on to the pitch.
I was doing leg press and this was my final set,
Katie: Be careful y/n!
Beth: your doing more than me with a fucking injury than I can do normally!
Y/n: pff this is light
I say casually putting 190 on the rack.
Beth shakes her head laughing and we all make our way to the pitch a little early.
Y/n: BETH GET IN GOAL
Beth: WHAT NOOO!
Katie: haha Beth get in! I'll whip some crosses in for y/n to finish she says running off. Beth pouts and Katie whips her first ball in I jump up to head it bang it rattles the back off the net, shortly after the girls arrived and we finished our training session, just as I was walking back to the changing rooms with Kyra my phone pings,
Unknown Number.
Hello Y/n my name is Lisa Evan's and I'm contacting from your local London hospital.
Me: why is everything ok?
Lisa: unfortunately not.. sorry to inform you but your mother has been involved in a car accident and she is being kept alive by machines it is your decision whether to continue life support or not and we ask for you to make your way to the hospital as soon as possible thanks.
My heart sunk reading that message and I think Kyra noticed.
Kyra: y/n? U alright mate. You gone as pale as a ghost..
I shake my head and sprint off to the car chucking my bag on the floor.
KYRA POV
Oh shit I thought to myself and I ran to Katie.
Kyra: KATIE I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED BUT Y/N GOT A MESSAGE SHE WENT PALE THEN I ASKED IF SHE WAS OK SHE SHOOK HER HEAD AND SPRINTED OFF TO THE CAR.
Katie: shit do ya know where she is going?
I shook my head.
BACK TO Y/N POV
I got in my car and sped off to the hospital tears streaming down my face and weaving through traffic, I parked my car and sprinted in the hospital to the front desk.
WHERE IS SARAH Y/N/L's ROOM I screamed at the receptionists
Rec: 3rd floor room 7
I nodded and ran up the stairs and busted in the room. I saw my mum sat there lifeless. I sat next to her and held her hand. The doc crept in silently
Doctor: I'm sorry mam but she has been declared brain dead. The only thing keeping her going is her life support.
Y/n: she wouldn't want to live like this.
Doctor: it's totally your decision.
Y/n: just do it. I sighed and kissed my mums forehead. Bye mum I love you.
The doctor turned the plug off and the room fell silent.
Doctor: time of death 11:35 am.
I looked at her one last time and ran out the room to my car and drove to the changing grounds as we had a evening training session I added some makeup to try and cover up my puffy eyes and walked into the centre. I sat down on the pitch and laced up my boots and started doing a few tricks and kicking the ball around, I was trying not to think about it. I had no family left.
All the girls came out and saw me Katie and Kyra ran to me,
Kyra: Y/n! Where did you go are you ok?!
I nod
Katie: u sure baby?
I nod again and we started training I didn't speak to anyone the whole time and did most drills on my own and now we did a mini match at the end, I jumped up for a header and lost balence I smacked my head on the goal post and jumped up straight away I felt the blood potting down my face.
Katie: Y/n! Sit down baby wait for the medics.
Y/n: I'm fine. I said wiping the blood off my head still oozing out
Katie: no your not sit down.
Y/n: IM FINE LEAVE ME ALONE!
I ran to the bathroom.
Katie: please y/n wait!
I went to the medical room got my head cleaned up then went back out to finish practice. Everyone went to the changing rooms and I tried to follow when I felt someone grab my wrist. I turned to see Beth,
Beth: you seemed so happy earlier something has happened talked to me. Unless someone is dead I can fix it! She tried to cheer me up.
Y/n: then you can't fix it. I say quietly and walk off, I get out my clothes and start to walk to the car when Beth pulls me back again.
Beth: y/n I'm sorry please tell me what happened everyone is worried.
Y/n: it's my mum. She had a car crash Beth.. she uhh she's gone.i say quietly my voice breaking tears rolling down my cheeks
Beth pulled me into her arms.
Beth: shh it's ok let it all out...
After a few minutes she pulls away.
Beth: can I tell Katie and Kyra for you they are really concerned y/n.
I shook my head.
Y/n: I'll tell them.
Beth: I'll go get them. She said with a sympathetic smile.
Katie and Kyra ran up to me and sat down.
Katie: so what's up.
Kyra: whatever it is we can help fix it!
Y/n: can you rewind time?
Kyra: no why?
Y/n: then you can't fix it.
Katie: oh shit y/n has someone died?
I nod
Y/n: it's my mum. She had a car crash, while I was at training.. FOR FUCK SAKE IF I WASN'T TRAINING THIS WOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED ITS ALL MY FAULT! I yell sobbing I punch the wall and Katie holds me tight,
Y/n: PLEASE KATIE LET GO. I scream sobbing she holds me tighter and I just cry in her arms she is now also crying. Kyra gave me a kiss on my head.
Kyra: shh let it out she said quietly rubbing my back.
Y/n: what's the point Katie...I have no family anymore no one to go see on Christmas no one to turn to no one to look up to... my life is pointless.
Katie: we will figure it out baby I promise.
Y/n: look Katie I love you so much but I don't deserve you. I'm a mess, you need to focus on your career rather than always worrying about me I'm a problem I'm not even a fucking person at this point I'm just a... a thing. I run and get in my car driving off.
Katie: what can I do Kyra. She says crying
Kyra: there isn't a lot Katie.. just support her.
I get home and call Jonas.
Jonas: hey y/n what's up?
Y/n: I don't want a sob story jonas or any sympathy but I want to go on loan. My mum died i want something else to focus on...
Jonas: I understand I will let you know if any offers come through....
