I Am The Queen [On-going]

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

Hinayaan kong mag usap ang dalawa.

I understand that there are just some kind of matters that a friend shouldn't meddle with. Especially when it comes to a relationship.

Aragorn and the others went back to the mansion as I ordered. They knew I can handle myself and besides, Jaero said that Kai will stay so they have nothing to worry about.

Inaayos ko ang baril ko ng lumapit sa akin si Kai.

I can sense that he wants to talk to me about something but he never dared to open his mouth.

"What is it?" I asked him.

He looked at me and sighed.

"I'm sorry about earlier." His voice was husky. He looked tired as well.

Of course he is.

Galing pa lang sya sa laban kaninang hapon tapos nangielam na naman s'ya ngayon.

I don't know why he would always go wherever I go. Maybe to make sure that I am dead once everything went wrong?

Umirap ako.

"Didn't Ken gave you a lil bit of knowledge about the organization you're in?" Seryosong tanong ko sa kanya.

"He did." He shortly answered.

"If that's the case, then why'd you keep on breaking the rules and doing stupid things?" Ani ko at hinarap n'ya.

"Making sure that you're safe is not stupidity, Ryll." He said while looking into my orbs intently.

I smirked at him.

Making sure of my safety or the other way around?

Lumapit ako sa kanya at naupo sa center table sa harap n'ya.

I spread my legs apart from each other. I saw how his jaw clenched and his eyes remained on my line of vision.

"Why do you keep on acting like as if I am still your girl?" I asked him using a husky voice.

"You are." He stated that made me smirked wider.

Lumapit ako sa kanya. I could smell his natural scent and it's still the same scent I craved to sniff a long time ago.

I traced the sides of his neck using my fingertips.

"Aren't you aware that you've lost me? A very long time ago." Ani ko.

He slightly tilted his head to look at me.

"You did what you want at the expense of our relationship." Hindi s'ya umimik at nakinig lang sa akin.

"And if you think that what had happened between us years ago still mattered to me..." He was lost with my words. I grabbed that opportunity to touch his face.

I had to pull myself together to refrain myself from tearing up.

"I want you to know that I never spent even a second to ever think about you again. Because you never. Really. Mattered." I had to remind myself of what I have been through the day he left me just so I would have the courage to say those words.

He never dared to open his mouth again after that.

Siguro ay tulog na ang dalawa sa kwarto.

It's almost 3 am in the morning and both of us are still awake.

Malay ko kung bakit hindi s'ya natutulog. Siguro ay nag iisip na s'ya ng paraan para paslangin ako ng hindi ko nalalaman.

Kalaunan ay tumayo s'ya at pumunta sa kusina. Or maybe in the comfort room? I don't know and I don't care.

I sighed and rested my head on the backrest of the couch.

Iniisip ko ang naging reaksyon n'ya kanina.

He really think I'm gonna kiss him, huh?

Those eyes.

Hanggang ngayon ay masyado pa din s'yang misteryoso at maraming sikreto.

A notification sound made me look around and that's when I realized that Kai left his cell in the couch.

Nilingon ko ang pinuntahan n'ya.

Tahimik roon.

Pinakiramdaman ko pa muna ang paligid bago ko kinuha ang cellphone n'ya.

Maybe I could dig some information about this guy-

Trisha:

Where are you? Can we meet?

Ilang sandali akong hindi kumurap nang mabasa ang mensahe na iyon.

Trisha.

Is it possible that Kai and this girl are in a relationship? Nagbalikan na ba sila?

A minute passed by and the phone rang so I immediately brought it back to its place and rested my head back on the couch.

I heard footsteps nearing the living area.

Umarte akong nagising ng ingay mula sa cellphone n'ya.

He picked up the phone and looked at me.

"Sorry." Aniya at mabilis na naglakad palayo para sagutin ang tawag.

Sinundan ko s'ya ng tingin.

Habang pinagmamasdan ko s'ya ay sumakit ang puso ko.

How is it possible that he's acting like he's still into me when he already have someone out there waiting for him?

Out of disappointment, I went out the hotel.

Maybe I need to wipe away my thoughts.

Malayo na ako sa hotel nang mapagtanto ko na wala akong dalang kahit ano bukod sa pitaka ko.

I left my phone and handgun in the hotel.

I sighed.

Instead of going back, I continued walking.

May nadadaanan akong iilang bukas na tindahan at cafe na may mga studyante at couples.

I remembered one time trying coffee for the first time after so many years. I was with someone back then. His name is Eric. He's my suitor. He promised me he will make me fall and he will make me forget all of my traumas from my past boys.  But turns out he was just like the rest of them.

I never fell in love with him and I was so sure I knew why. I never saw myself kissing him or even hugging him.

Nothing can beat the love I felt for Justine that time and I am so smitten over him that I never saw myself getting attached with anyone.

Eric stopped courting me because I saw him fucking my college friend. I wasn't hurt. I am disappointed.

I was in second year college when I asked myself:

How many times should I have to get hurt just to realize that love is not for everyone?

Tinulak ko ang pintuan ng cafe. Ilan sa mga customers ay napatingin sa gawi ko.

Malayo ito sa hotel. Kung balak kong magmunimuni muna dito ay paniguradong alas cinco ng umaga na ako makakabalik.

"One cup of cappuccino, please." Sabi ko sa crew na lumapit sa akin.

"Right away, ma'am." Anito at iniwan ako saglit.

Malapit lang ako sa bintana kaya tanaw ko ang mga ilaw na nagbibigay liwanag sa daan.

"Here's your order, ma'am. Enjoy your coffee!" Maligayang bati ng crew matapos ilapag ang order ko sa lamesa.

"Thanks." Maikling sagot ko sa kanya.

Unti unting lumiwanag ang paligid pero kita ko ang makapal na ulap senyales ng malakas na ulan.

Unti unting bumuhos ang ulan. Nakatitig lang ako sa labas. Dumadami na ang tao at wala na din ang mga ilaw. Hindi ko namalayan na nagtagal na pala ako sa cafe.

"Your friend's worried."

Humigpit ang hawak ko na tasa ng kape na lumamig na, dahil sa gulat nang may naupo sa harap ko.