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The kiss lasts longer than it probably should have, and gets more passionate than it probably should have.
But it's when his hand slides down my back and onto my butt, that I stop him.
"What the hell?!" I say, wanting it to be more louder than it actually came out, since I was out of breath.
"What?"
"Why did you do that?"
"Why did I do wh- oh."
I stare at him, wanting an explanation.
"What, you didn't like it?"
"No! You can't just go and grab onto my àss!"
"And why not?"
"Because I'm not your girlfriend." I state, and his face shifts to an angry expression.
"What, you thought that since you kissed me twice you'd automatically be my boyfriend?" I ask him.
"Well- no -but.."
"One, you never asked, two, even if you were my boyfriend you shouldn't touch my butt like that! It's disgusting."
"So you're not my girlfriend?" He asks, and I nod. "So you just think you can kiss me like that whenever you're sad?"
"You're the one who kissed me!"
"You didn't stop me."
"That doesn't mean anything."
"You know what? Just go. I don't want to see you again. Go and find your little boyfriend, because it's obvious you do have another one."
I try to find a comeback for him, but I can't help but thinking about Evan.
At that, a few tears slip out of my eyes. This wasn't the best moment to remember of what Evan did to me.
I shake my head and run off, since I don't like when people see me cry, especially not Andrea.
This was a stupid fight, but I'm a very sensible person. I cry for any stupid thing that happens to me.
I feel weak, and stupid, because of this, but I can't do anything about it.
I knew Andrea wasn't really the type of cute and sweet guy - like Evan was - but he was being really sweet in the last few days.
I sigh, and enter my house.
I immediately recognize the smell of the vanilla candle placed in the middle of the living room. Dad always lights it when he's sad, or stressed out.
"H-hey dad."
He jumps up from the couch. "Izzy!" And he runs to hug me.
"I've been so worried!" He says, as I hug him back. "Where were you?"
"With Andrea."
"You were actually next door?"
I chuckle nervously. "Yeah."
"I'm so happy you're back."
"Where's mom?
He sighs, and I understand what he means.
"It'll be fine, sweetie." He strokes my hair gently.
I probably should be comforting him, and not the other way around, but I don't have the energy to do so.
"Dad?"
"Yes, Hun?"
"Can I go to see Rose? It's been a while."
"Of course you can."
Finally I can see my baby again.
It's really been too long since I rode her.
And maybe I'll also find Alec.
I have a lot to tell him.
"Thanks dad." I take my stuff and leave.
I quickly reach Rose, and after cleaning her and placing bridle and saddle on her, we leave the stable, and head to the camp.
"Look baby," I whisper to her. "Today we'll try to jump higher, at least 80. I know your record is 60, but we can try right? Together."
I play with her ear, and sit back on the saddle, ready to face the jump.
As we approach it, my mind keeps getting me distracted.
First Evan, who dumped me for no actual reason.
At least if I first told him I had to go to Italy he would have had one. But I thought we would continue the relationship even long distance.
And then there's Andrea.
I don't know if I like him, I don't know if he likes me, the only thing I know is that he's a god damn great kisser.
And, let's face it, he's also god damn handsome.
But he's classified as one of those 'bad boys' one wouldn't like to be with.
There were moments in which he was really sweet, but-
Owwww!
I focus out of my thoughts and find myself on the floor, and Rose running around the camp.
Then I see the bars of the obstacle laying next to me and I understand.
I'm so stupid, I was distracted while I was making Rose jump something higher than she ever did. I get up and whistle, calming her down, and leading her towards me.
I gently stroke her nose.
"I'm so sorry, baby. I've been so stupid." Again, I start crying. "I'm
so sorry."
I thought going horse riding would have cheered me up, but it really didn't.
I lead her out of the camp, and go to wash her feet a little, but first splashing some water on my face, and making Rose drink.
That's when I see Alec coming to me.
"Hello babe." He says, smiling till he saw the look on my face.
"Hey, what's wrong?" He said, gently lifting my chin.
"I - uh - I fell off Rose."
He looks at me, definitely not believing me.
"I'll tell you later, just let me finish with Rose."
I leave her in the stable with a few carrots, and follow Alec to his home where, as usual, I'm warmly welcomed.
"So tell me hun," he says, sitting on his bed. "What is it?"
I shake my head.
"It's just everything." I say, letting another few tears break my shield I tried to build up not to let them fall. "Everything seems to be against me. Maybe just the entire world is."
"Not me" he assures me, smiling. "I could never be."
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•Why do I ship Izec so much?! It's so weird. Anyyyway, how you guys doing?•
