I've been feeling like Dally hasn't been putting much effort into our reltionship. It's like "You have me why do I need to impress you"
He's tryinng a new thing where he's gonna start dating instead of just talking and flirting with girls but honestly, I'd prefer him flirting with me. We've been together for 3 months and our sex is good, He's nice to me but it's not like how it was before we started dating and I don't know why. Maybe he's scared but I told him I would wait for him.
We've been through so much and it feels like he's throwing it all away because he's scared and won't talk to me.
I don't feel happy with him anymore. His wink doesn't give me butterfly's anymore or the smell of his jacket doesn't make my stomach curl into a knot anymore. I'm tired of trying to constantly plan stuff, Go out with him, Talk to him, Do anything to make our relationship happier because it's not working, Because he's not trying to make it work. It just feels like someone slapped a label on us that is supposed to mean something but doesn't.
I really wanna make this work but it feels like a one sided love.
I walked into the Curtis house.
"Dally, We need to talk"
"Okay" The gang looks at each other. We go on the front porch. Not much privacy but oh well, Sure I loved him but I didn't like him.
"This isn't working out, You don't put any effort into us and I've tried so many times to make our relationship better but you don't, You drag us down and it's so draining trying to fix us. It's like trying to put back a broken mirror with tape. It doens't do anything"
I start to cry.
"Ok" He says. "Okay? That's all you have to say!? Your throwing us all away for what!? You don't even try to talk to me and when I do you change the subject. That's not how relationships are supposed to work! Your supposed to communicate with each other. And I love you so much but you clearly don't see that and I'm done trying to fix something that's not there. Do you even love me!? Because I love you," I take a deep breath trying not to ball my eyes out. " Because I love you but I just can't like you anymore"
"I love you y/n of course I do. It's just my mental process. I haven't been in something like this before so it's hard" "Thank talk to me! Why don't you talk to me!?" "I just, I don't know"
"Are you kidding me!?, Have a nice life Dallis winston"
I walk off their porch sobbing. Why!? Why did he have to do that. If he really loved me why didn't he stop me and try to work things out. Where we not meant to be?" I stop in the road feeling a deep pain in my chest.
I can't find words to speak as I feel like I'm losing air and can't breathe, And he just stands there and watches me.
"Dally please" I'm crouched over "Why didn't you pull me back and tell me your just stupid and need help and talk to me!?" A tear falls from his eyes. "Great" I cry and call someone.
"Please come, I can't breathe and I'm hurt, Real bad" A few minutes later Darry pulls up and picks me up still sobbing. "What happened!?" He asks and Dally comes backoutside with PonyBoy and Soda. He can tell it was Dally.
"I'm disappointed in you kid" I get in the car. "Take me home" He drives off.
