!TW! Suicide attempt and self harm. This may be triggering for you and I'm always here to talk. Feel free to skip this if needed!<3!
Staying can be really good sometimes. Espeacilly when your already hanging.
That's all you can think about.
Regret.
"I shouldn't have done this" "Maybe life was worth living" "I wish I didn't do this" But it's too late.
I can feel my face change color and my eyes about to pop out me head.
Right as I'm about to go I can slightly hear the door open.
I'll never forget the gasp of Dally. He's tough and seen somethings but I think this is the first for him.
"DARRY!" He shouts. Almost loud enough to wake me up it seemed. DARRY rushed in and I could feel him tugging at the rope. Realizing he was making it worse "GO GET A KNIFE NOW!" He yelled and a second later Dally came back.
He cut it down and cut it from my neck.
I could hear everyone gathering around and start sobbing. "Is she okay!" "WHAT HAPPENED!" "Oh my gosh..." "Why"
Guilt was all I felt.
Darry held me in his arms. Surrounding my whole body with them. Crying and begging for me to come back. "Why baby!? why!"
He started CPR.
I gasped and opened my eyes in a daze. "Darry?" I said as nothing had clicked in yet.
Once I was able to see everything clear I couldn't believe myself. Why would I ever do something so stupid!
Words just kept coming out my mouth.
"I'm so sorry baby, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Dar! and you guys!"
"Baby all that matters is that your back okay!? Can you hear me? What do you need!?" "You guys.."
They all gathered around.
After a bit of crying I decided to talk and say why I did it and kept apologizing. Soon after it turned into all of us sharing our stories and crying. Than laughing and comforting eachother and falling asleep.
I don't know why I would ever try to leave them. Their such sweet souls.
