𝖎𝖙'𝖘 𝖓𝖎𝖈𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖍𝖆𝖛𝖊 𝖆 𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉 | jackieshauna

Chapter 2: Jackie

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

I run out of the hotel room, terrified of what i've just done.

I just kissed a girl.

And it felt like heaven

I liked it. Why, why the hell did I like it?

I'm petrified of what the team would think, what my family would think.

What Jeff would think

Jeff tried to fuck Shauna. And now I see why. Hell, I'd fuck her too if I could. She would let me and I know it. And that fucking horrifies me.

I run up to Lottie who is staring at Nat, while feeding her ice cream. I see Nat genuinely smile for the first time ever. Lottie puts her thumb to Nat's lips, rubbing the ice cream off of them.

"Lottie! Nat!" I run to them, interrupting their lovely moment.

They separate swiftly as if they weren't just being painfully obvious about their relationship, like they have always been about it.

"Oh please, everyone knows you two are together, you're not good at hiding it."

"Oh." Nat and Lottie say at the same time.

"Okay, you two are experts on kissing girls, is it normal for it to feel so much fucking better than with a guy."

"Yes." They speak at the same time once again.

"Wait Jackie, does that mean that you finally fucking kissed Shauna?" Nat asks me, a smile creeping on her lips.

"How the hell did you know it was Shauna?" I look at both of them, terrified that everyone on the team thinks we make out in secret like Nat and Lottie do.

"Oh please, you're not good at hiding it." Lottie smirks, using my own words about her and Nat's relationship about me and mine with Shauna against me.

Or lack of mine with Shauna at this point.

"Okay fine, yes I kissed her and now I'm fucking scared for my life because my family probably won't be accepting. And Jeff will either call me slurs or want to have a threesome and honestly, he is terrible at sex.

Lottie snorts and Nat rolls her eyes.

"Why are you even with him, when you're obviously a fucking lesbian and he is terrible at fucking?" Nat asks me bluntly, as if I am the stupidest person in the world.

"Because." I sigh. "He's a man."

"Oh Jackie." Lottie wraps her arms around me in a hug. "You love her don't you? And not as just a friend, as a crush slash potential girlfriend."

"I do." I say in a sad voice. "And I don't think I can ever stop it."

"You don't have to." Nat smiles, walking towards me and looking into my eyes.

I see a man going to the front desk, ready to talk to anyone who needs assistance. I get out of Lottie's grasp and run to the man, running away from my feelings and responsibilities. Desperately seeking to make small talk with a stranger so I don't have to talk to Shauna.