𝖎𝖙'𝖘 𝖓𝖎𝖈𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖍𝖆𝖛𝖊 𝖆 𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉 | jackieshauna

Chapter 6: Jackie

We sit there awkwardly for while in silence and it kills me that I can't say it back to her. The words I know she feels like she so desperately needs to hear.

It's not that I don't love her.

I do. So. Damn. Much.

But I can't tell her that. No, that would mean coming to terms with my feelings. That would mean accepting them and myself.

But then again, I hate seeing Shauna in pain like this. And the fact that I caused it makes me hate it even more.

I know how much she needs me to say it back and as much as I would absolutely love to, I can't. I hate it as much as she does, if not more.

Suddenly, Nat comes up to me and whispers in my ear. "Say it back asshole."

"I can't." I whisper back.

"You can't do what?" Shuana asks, her voice adorable. The suddenness of how adorable I find it sends a shiver down my spine.

I look over at her. "Nothing honey" I grab her hand and squeeze it.

"Honey?" She asks, looking up at me.

Nat walks away with a wink, mouthing, 'tell her.'

I look at Shauna and sigh, trying to figure out how to word this.

"What do you need to tell me?" She asks me in that adorable voice again.

"I love you too." I begin to panic. "Shit wait I-I."

Out of nowhere, Shauna kisses me in front of the entire team.

To my surprise, I kiss her back, cupping her face in my hands and smiling against her lips. I don't feel as scared as I did the first time I kissed her even though this time we have an audience. It actually feels freeing and exhilarating.

When she pulls away we're breathless, my hands still cupping her face as she presses our foreheads together.

I smile and turn to our audience. A mixture of supportive faces and ones that are utterly terrified by witnessing two girls kiss each other.

And I wouldn't have it any other way.