The Man I Married

Chapter 21

He suddenly hold my face and look at me seriously. "Because life without you is empty. I feel incomplete. I don't even like to come home when you left. I've been miserable sweetheart." he confessed.

"But you don't love me. You cheated on me." I said sadly.

"Because you made me depressed. Every time you near me there's this urge feeling that I want to touch you, hug you. I want to kiss you and do whatever I want to you, but there's also the thought that you're just forced to marry me. That you don't love me either. My flustration from you is killing me. I'm so mad to myself that I need to scold you or shouted you just to get your attention. That day you saw me with woman is planted. I pay that woman to see your reaction. I was hoping you become aggressive and possessive in me, but I'm so disappointed. You didn't even argue with me. You ignore the situation as if nothing happened. You didn't confronted me, instead you left me as if you finally found a reason to leave me. Chai, that day I know I lost you and I regret that plan."

As Gunar confessing, I found myself crying hard. This is the words I waited for a long time to hear.

"Gunar..." I whisper in tears.

"Sweetheart, I'm sorry if I hurt you that time, I'm sorry for not just telling you the truth. For being rude to you. For being coward."

"Gunar.." I whisper while still crying.

"I can't change the past but I can change the future. Give me a chance to prove myself to you. I won't use the paper we signed before, but instead I start again. I prove to you that I'm worth it sweetheart. Please..."

"Gunar..." I can't find a word to answer him.

Gunar slowly cut our distance. He gently move his lips to my lips. He kiss me with passion and care. I felt his trembling hand in my face while tasting my lips and waiting for my replied.

After a while I found myself replying to his kiss. The first sweet kiss I ever had.

"Chai... I dream about this..." he softly said. The emotion in his eyes melted me. After a minutes of kissing Gunar have no intention to let me go.

"Gunar... let me breath first..."

"No. I want more kisses from you sweetheart..."

"How can I work tomorrow, if you make my lips swollen.."

"I can cancel your schedule tomorrow.." he whisper.

I smile. "You can't do that..."

He smiled too. "Why not? We can spend more days here... Hmm..." He said and kiss me again quickly in the cheek.

"We need to work and don't mess up my other schedule Sir..."

He suddenly push me down to lay in the bed. "Stay me with tonight."

"Where do you think I go?"

"No where, just here, in my arms sweetheart."

"I'm still mad at you..." I jokingly said sulking.

"I already explained everything to you."

"But you still cheated on me."

"I'm really sorry, but I swear I never fuck anyone since we got married."

"How can you expect me to believe you?"

"That's the truth. I didn't do all the way sweetheart. I can't fuck anyone while thinking of you. I'm just using them to masturbate  but of course while imagining your face."

"What?! You're crazy."