Last Chances

Why Are We Here?

There is something extremely important that she isn't telling me I just know it. Im not even sure I want to know. We get in Emily's white BMW and pull up outside the Greydone Graveyard. "Why are we here Emily?" he asks me. I avoid the question. "You can wait in the car if you want?!""No its okay". I want you to get to know me. "come on!" We get out the car and walk over to the other side of the graveyard. On the stone the name Melanie Belrose aged 17.  He is quite confused at this stage I can see it in his blank expression his eyes are wider and his eyebrows have turned into a frown he doesn't know what to say to me - To be honest I kind have expected that. My eyes lock with his and he just stares. "This is my twin sister. She died at birth. I visit her every month on the same date always the 19th. My mum and dad don't know I come and visit her. It helps me to deal with things at school and at home. Someone extra to talk to and no one to argue back at me when my attitude is bad or if I say the wrong thing." I sit down on the ground next to her and give it a hug. "You are the first person I have told about her not because I am ashamed but because I am scared I have never brought anyone here but with you I find it easy to tell I know you won't tell anyone about this." Jack grabs onto my hand and squeezes it tightly for reassurance. "I had only just turned one at the time, It was cancer in the lungs and overtime it got worse.Sometimes I wish it was me and not her. I have always known about her seen her and I have seen her in pictures but its not the same. I can't remember anything that we did together and that is the saddest bit."

We were walking back to the car over the other side of the grave yard. "You know I thought you were a complete and utter jerk at first that knew he could get any girl and just used them for a bit off fun and bullied people much younger and less powerful than you. You have completely proved me wrong which is a feeling I am completely not used to. You are lovely on the inside and the outside." I blurt out. 

'Emily, Maybe I am a jerk but i certainly don't go round sleeping with people for fun. I am not like that at all. I am an Ambassador at school if you didn't know that." He smirks. 

"I can't help but smile at everything you say. I didn't know you were an Ambassador." 

Six hours later..

I have completely opened up to Jack and it feels so good. He probably thinks I am a complete weirdo now but to be honest I don't care as long as he knew who I was then thats all that matters.It felt good to finally talk to someone about something I had told nobody.  

Jack 

I can't believe that she has told me something before she has told anyone else. She must think I think she is weird. I just looked at her with a blank expression on my face saying nothing. Why did I do that I am such an idiot. I probably have just ruined anything that could have happened between us. God I can be so stupid sometimes.