Irish Deception

Chapter Fifty-One

Stasia

I really had such an amazing day with the twins. After practically spending the last couple of days alone and only really speaking to any of them when they asked me if I needed anything, spending the whole day out having fun with the twins was like a breath of fresh air.

I was so looking forward to coming back and spending the evening with Blake as well.

When I walked in to see everything set out for us my heart literally felt so full and I thought for a moment that we'd all managed to work through everything. That all it needed was a couple of days cooling off time for everything to get back to how it was.

But how wrong I was.

I didn't even think when I put the ring back on, for the first time it wasn't like I felt like I needed to keep it on. It was just more like an automat motion that I regretted as soon as the smile dropped off Blake's face.

I wanted to explain that to him, tell him I'd take it off there and then. That being able to spend time with him was everything I wanted and needed right now but he wouldn't even give me chance.

No he stormed straight out and that bubbly happy feeling I had was gone just as quickly as he was.

Then what seemed like another automatic reaction the next thing I knew Vlad's phone was pressed to my ear and the moment Irvin's voice came through I felt a settling and comforting feeling wash over me.

It's not like it is with the others.

He's let me explain the conflicting feelings I have, being understanding and listening to war that's going on between my heart and mind.

He hasn't got angry, made accusations or made me feel like I'm the worst kind of traitor.

If anything he's been more of a friend for me to offload onto. A friend that I can feel myself falling for more and more every time I hear his reassuring comforting voice.

"I hadn't expected you to keep it" he chuckles referring to the ring and i think for the first time everyone is in agreement about something.

Leaning myself back in the bed I sigh.

"I want to see you Anastasia" he says causing my whole body to tense. "So we can talk about all of this properly"

"No you can't" I blurt out sitting up. "They'll think the worst they'll-" I start to say but he cuts me off.

"Hey hey don't panic it's okay there's no need to panic" he says reassuringly easing my tension only slightly. "I'm not going to cause any trouble Anastasia, I just need to see you" he then says and I hear the sincerity in his tone. "If that's what you want, if you want to see me too"

"I do" I hear myself say before I quickly back track. "I mean I can't" I then say and I regret it.

"I need to know what you want, if you want to stay with them then I'll step away but if you still have doubts and want to be here with me all you have to do is tell me" he says repeating the words he's told me numerous times over the last few days.

"I just need some time to think about it" I admit and when I'm met with silence I go on to say "can I just have a few more days?"

In truth it he'd of asked me earlier today if I wanted to leave the answer would be no but now after Blake stormed out earlier I really do feel that the best for us all is for me to go back.

All I can think is that Hugh was right all along. This will never work with them.

"You can have as long as you need, I've already told you this" he sighs and just as he does there's a knocking at my door.