Lost hope

Chapter twenty nine

I was sitting in my car outside the hotel, thinking out what I would say but nothing came up to my mind so I would just say what would come out from my mouth.

I walk out from my car and into the hotel as I search on which floor I can find 325. Floor 4. I take the stairs up to floor four and go through a long hallway with doors. Then I am standing infront of his door. It was 6pm so hopefully they were still in Seville and not on their way to Barcelona.

First knock and then a second one. Seconds later the door swing open and I'am met with the brown eyes. "hello" I say and he looked confused at me. "Ortega?" He asks in confusion. "I-We need to talk" I let out and his expression softens as he lets me get inside.

"what exactly are we going to talk about?" He asks as I stand in the middle of the room while he was leaning against the table for support with his foot as the other injured one was resting. "The day we kissed, I said that it was wrong of me to not pull you away. That was a lie. When I said that I may not want things like you want. That was a lie as well. I have hard time to let myself just enjoy things after what I've been through in life. I always overthink of the possibilities of what might happen if I do what I want to do and therefore I don't even start to enjoy things because there is this possibility." I tell him and he listens clearly. "So that's what I'am afraid of" I end. "now that you have told me this, it means that.." he says and smiles as he tries to get that into his head. "I want to be with you" I tell him directly. No hiding and no running away.

"you won't run away and ignore me?" Gavira asks as he takes small jumps on one of his foot as he comes near me. So near that I have to look up at him a little bit and so close that our chests almost touch each other. I carefully shake my head as I smile and then he kisses me.

She puts her hands on either side of my face and the room falls away. I have never gotten so lost in a kiss before. And then, the space between us explodes. My heart keeps missing beats and my hands cannot bring her close enough to me. I taste her and realize I have been wanting this forever. I have loved before, but it didn't feel like this. I have kissed before, but it didn't burn me alive. Maybe it lasts a minute, and maybe it's an hour. All I know is that I wanted it to last forever.

"you officially can't run away now" I say as I gently break the kiss. She laughs and then looks at me with a smile. "if I did, you wouldn't be able to catch me" she says and looks down at my injured ankle. Even in situations like this, she doesn't forget to tease me. "Everyone who choses to leave you have made their biggest mistake in life. I won't leave you, don't be afraid of that" I reassure her. I will fight until her mind is so convinced that not even her father can make her think something else.

All I know is that kiss, and how soft her skin is when it brushes against mine, and that even if I did not know it until now, I have been waiting for this person forever. So if that means that I need to fight and help her to feel better I will do it. Together with her.

And before we could say something to each other I heard a knock on my door. "Gavi, we are leaving." I heard Fermin yell from outside. "Give me 5 minutes, I'm coming" I reply and then look back at Ortega. "you will have to come and visit me now. No exception" I say and smile.

I would love it if she choses to move back to Barcelona but that's not my decision to make. If she wants it, I would just be happy. If she wants to continue to live in Seville then I'll see her as often as I can. "Only because you said so" she said as I chuckled. Of course she would say that.
"come on, I'll help you with your bag" She says as she takes my bag and gives my crutches and we leave to the elevator.
"which way?" She asks me and I direct her to the elevator. I was confused at first since this is the fourth floor and I thought that she had taken the elevator. But it clicked inside me when I remembered that she has claustrophobia and doesn't take the elevator when she is alone.
"you still have the same number, right?" She asks me and I nod as she happily directs her glance towards her phone and not me. I just watch her actions. More entertaining than watching a movie.

"Luna?" Frenkie says as we make our way out of the hotel room. Our bus was right in front of me and some of the players were already inside whereas Frenkie was here. "Oh hey Frenkie. I haven't seen you in a long time" Ortega says. "yes, I'm gonna sue Elías for not taking you with him to our little skiing trip we had" he says. "although he's a lawyer, maybe that's not so smart" he then adds and they both laugh as I just smile. "anyways, it was good to meet you. I will go inside and I'll get Pablo's bag as well. Bye, Luna." Frenkie says as he takes the bag from Luna and then waves as he gets into the bus.

"I guess it's time for you to go" Ortega says as she turns towards me. "yeah and I would want to kiss you so much right now but" I start and look at the bus knowing that she would not let me kiss her infront of everyone. Not yet at least, I would change that as well. "not here" she ends my sentence with a wink. "we'll see each other soon, don't you worry" she then says and I lift my eyebrow in confusion. "I won't ask what that's supposed to mean" I say and she smile nodding. "have a good flight. goodbye, Gavira" she says and I walk towards the bus with my crutches.

"What?" I say the moment I step inside the bus and see that everyone was staring at me. And then a burst of laughter runs through the whole bus as I just shake my head and go and sit down next to Pedri. "that was cute, Pablo" Pedri says sarcastically and I just give him the annoyance glance. "y'all have no better thing to do" I say to him and pick up my phone. "hey Pablo, you gotta give me some advices. If you can get her, then I can get whoever I want" hector says who is sitting infront of me and I just rub my face with my hand in disappointment. "I'm giving up on you guys"