joy brings forth dread

ii. forgive or forget

“you should forgive them. it’s been a long time.”
 
“it’s better to forgive than to forget, honey.”
 
“sweetie, forgive them. God will forgive you for how you forgive others. if you don’t forgive them, then God will not forgive you either.”
        
      

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forgiving them was never easy after what they did to me and my family. they betrayed us and hurt me physically, emotionally, and mentally. during that time, i was so unstable that i begged them to leave me alone. but look at what they did—they never listen to me and never will.

how am i supposed to forgive them? it’s easy to say “i forgive them.” but my mind and heart cannot. i can’t. call me names if you want; i don’t care anymore.

i’d rather forget them than forgive them. i’d rather erase their existence, forget the pain they caused, and forget their names— just forget them entirely. i’m not a God who can forgive so easily.

i’ll begged God for forgiveness for not being able to forgive them.

        
         
   

       

 
  yes i forget it.
and no‚ i never forgive.

forget how they hurt you in the past‚
but never forget how it taught you.