The Badboy Lover|| J.JK [EDITING]

Just me! (Don't skip if you want to know me)

Hello, everyone! I know my updates are getting slower day by day and I'm really sorry for that.

My health is not that good plus the academic stress is not helping at all. I have tons of works left to be done but I still can't find myself to do it.

I am writing this note for two reasons. First to apologise for the updates and second to talk to you guys.

I have been feeling really lonely these days. I really have no one to talk to. The one whom I considered my friends turned out to be real monsters. They just stabbed me right where they should. I'm still trying to process everything that's happening around me.

Is it really bad to show someone your kind side? Why is it that everytime I try to befriend anyone they just turn their back to me? I very clearly know that I'm an overthinker and my mind can't help but accuse me for all the things.

Let me tell you what happened. You guys are literally the only one with whom I'm sharing all this.

Well, recently I became the class monitor of my class and my friend-well the one who stabbed me first. I won't reveal her name but she's good in studies and when I became class monitor i noticed the increasing distance between us.

First I ignored it thinking it might be something from which she's stressed but no, the truth was that she was jealous and I was unaware of that because we've been together for more than two years and I trusted her a lot.

We had a friend group of 6 girls but she was the closest one to me. My other classmates noticed this and told me she was jealous but I wasn't ready to listen. One day my class teacher asked me about whom should be the assistant monitor.

I didn't chose her but the other girl of our class because I'm a straight forward person. She didn't have the leadership quality while the other girl had all the qualities to be a perfect assistant monitor.

She didn't talk to me for straight two days and this time I noticed it but ignored because I don't really like to confront the situation without any proof or anything. It might be just my overthinking mind.

But one day I heard her and the other 3 girls of our group bitching about me.

I listened to it and trust me I have never felt so betrayed before. I cried in the school's washroom because they were the only one I had and they did this.

The next day I confronted them in lunch break and asked them but to my utter disbelief they weren't ready to accept it even after knowing that I heard them. Fuck it! They didn't just have the courage to do so.

I called them cowards in order to pinch them to accept the truth but it never helped.

The line which I heard was 'If XXX ( bitch) had been in her place, she would have spit on the head girl's post too but XXX (me) needed everyone's attention so she became a monitor.'

Can you believe it my own friends said that? Was I really a stupid to be happy for them on their achievements when they were clearly not?

I've not talked to them ever since that. I sometimes laugh that there was a time when even two benches were not enough for us to keep our lunches and now is the time where my whole bench is vacant with only my lunch, sitting alone while watching them eating, enjoying and laughing as if I never mattered in their life.

Anyways, I told you all this to make you understand that there are alot betrayers around you so don't trust them completely. You never know when they show their real colour.

Never let your guards down and just don't ignore their activities. Don't misunderstand them like I did and try to connect the dots. Your brain is much smarter and matured than your heart so listen to it.

And yeah, don't worry about me. I'm completely fine, they thought they could depress me and make me weak in my studies but dude nah! I stan BTS, I never learnt to give a shit about the one who just used me for their benefits.

I'm not letting my marks down and also I was just feeling alone. I know there are a lot of you who feels or have gone through the same thing. It's just don't hesitate to talk to me. Treat me like an online friend.

Letting out your thoughts is not wrong just make sure you're telling the one who's actually willing to hear it. Not all friends are toxic but not all friends are angels too.

"Be kind not submissive because there are enough monsters around you, waiting to break you down."

~A/n

Anyways I'm ending this here. You can talk to me in communication section, comment section or the private messaging sections. I promise to not ignore you and yeah tell me how's the story going so far?

Should I add some twists or keep it plain for few parts? I'm also working on another J.JK fanfiction "The Alive Past" so make sure to check it out.

I'll try to make the updates fast. Till then, bye stay safe and aware. (Shit! Sounds like a CID officer. 😂)