The Badboy Lover|| J.JK [EDITING]

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Jungkook POV

I took the sip of the beer while looking at the painting hung on the wall in my hallway. Yeah, it's the same one for which I stupidly yelled at Y/n and I still regret doing that.

I know I apologized to her for that and she even forgave me but I couldn't help the feeling of guilt rushing through me whenever I remember that.

It wasn't like I yelled at her intentionally but I was just scared and my reactions just hit me momentarily causing me to act like a dickhead.

I sighed and caressed the picture with a faint smile. A sad one. The tears welled up in my eyes as the memories hit me. Childhood has always been the best phase of my life, not my entire phase but most of it.

I was born like a sunshine in my parent's life. When they had given up on the hope of having a baby, I was born. I was cute, talkative, smart but not happy. For some reason, I was never happy. It wasn't because of my parents, they had done their best at raising me.

The incredible love, affection and care I got since my birth was really something I still cherished. But still there wasn't an ounce of happiness inside me. I was very happy from other's perspective but from my own, I was never.

I used to try to find happiness in small things but no use. I spent my utmost time with my parents to be happy but was never. Being a naive and innocent child, I didn't know what my heart searched for.

But then, she came in my life with her little, bouncy legs. Her small hands wrapped around her parents' hands on both the sides, she had a wide and bright smile spread across her face which was able to even melt down the glacier.

I still remember how she jogged towards me with her ponytail swaying in air behind her, her cute purple coloured summer frock bouncing with her each step as she stood infront of me.

And then I felt it. When her soft voice echoed in my ear, my whole world stopped roaming. There was only one thing I felt at that time. Happiness. The feeling that I searched for in every small thing, I found in her.

For the first time at that time, I smiled genuinely, my heart practically swelling with the amount of happiness I felt at that moment. I never knew that she would be the reason of my happiness.

But as I said, all that didn't last long. One day everything was fine and the other everything felt devastated around me, like a sudden storm that just came and destroyed everything. All the things were snatched from me, my house, my place, my parents and her.

One day ago I was wandering in the sunlight and from the next day onwards there was no light in my life again. Only darkness. My heart still pains when I remember the way I used to weep in dark.

I was starved for more than a week, abandoned on the streets with so many threats roaming on my head. I had no place to go. No one to talk. No one to even wipe my tears.

The people on the streets used to give me several looks. Some looked at me with pity while some looked at me with judgement but no one ever came to help me.

I was alone, devastated, scared and tired. There was no energy left in my body, I couldn't even move my single muscle. I was just a little kid who was suddenly left alone like that, who didn't know what was right or wrong, who was to be trusted and who was not, how the outside world worked but only wanted his parents infront of him.

Seemed like my that one prayer was listened when I saw my parents running towards me. It was hard to believe that they were actually back. I wanted to smile but I was too tired to even do that.

I was hospitalized for three days due to lack of energy. When I was discharged, everything was back to its place. We shifted to Seoul, had our house and all the things. Everything was back but one precious thing was snatched away from me. Her.