the kids aren't alright | brallon a.u | dallon's song |

Eyeliner and Kisses

It was Wednesday during third period, that I was called out of class the nurse. I wasn't sure why she called me out, but I followed her anyways and when we got into the room, the principal and Brendon were both sitting in the chairs across from the nurse's desk.

I tilted my head to look at Brendon and he just gave me a small sad smile. Ok- what the hell is going on?

Principal Iero looks at me and says, "Hello Dallon, please sit on the bed."

I look at Brendon but this time he has more of a sad, scared expression. I sigh, knowing I'm outnumbered and I sit on the bed.

"Dallon, Brendon told us you were having complications with the boys at school, he didn't tell us exactly what was happening between you and them, and he has told us that-"

"When you feel ready- you can tell him." Brendon finishes off Principal Iero.

I nod and sigh, but this time Nurse Ellie speaks. "But, Brendon feels that you do have some health issues that we should worry about. Some concerning your mental health and conflicting harm onto your body... Do you want to tell us if this is true- about conflicting harm onto yourself."

I gulp, and look at Brendon. I can't exactly lie to him, or the school. Especially when I have known Principal Iero for practically all of my life. He is my father's friend, after all. I let out a shaky sigh and pull up my sleeves of my grey sweater. Gasps fill the room and it makes few tears fall out of my eyes.

I look up at the ceiling not wanting to see anything. I already knew what my arms looked like- hundreds of cuts running up and down, going diagonally. A few long cuts going from the top of my forearm to my wrists that were supposed to get the job done, but didn't.

I hated myself for that. I didn't hate anyone else. Just me.

"Dallon, how long have y-you had these?" Brendon asks his voice quivering. I shake my head and look into his eyes, which were a few feet away from me. His eyes were puffy and red, no no no, I didn't plan on him to be sad. He couldn't be sad- he can't cry!

"Dallon, I need you to come by last period, for now, rest here. And Brendon can stay with you okay?" Principal Iero says standing up, and puts a hand on my shoulder. I slightly flinch, but he doesn't notice and he leaves the room along with Nurse Ellie.

I look at Brendon once more, taking his saddened state. "I'm sorry," I sob my voice rough and dry as I spoke. Wow, I sound different.

"Shh, shh it's okay." He says and pulls me into a hug. "Get some rest okay?" I nod and let go of him, laying down on the soft bed, pulling down my sleeves.

I keep sobbing into the pillow, and I feel Brendon's hand on my back, massaging me slowly. "I'm a freak." I blurt and cry even more, taking in a shaky breath.

"No you're not, Dallon. You are not a freak."

I turn to face him, my crying slowing down sufficiently and I look up to him, "Stop lying." I whisper.

A tear falls down his face, and he says, "Dallon, go to sleep, you need it." he says referring to the dark purple bags under my eyes. I nod and shut my tired and burning eyes and when I do, I feel Brendon's hand in my hair, rubbing my head slowly, which soon enough makes me fall into a deep slumber.

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When I awoke, it was already eighth period and Brendon head was resting on my hand. "Brendon." I whisper, not wanting to damage my dry, raspy voice even more.

His head shoots up and he looks at me, giving me a small warm smile. "Hey, you sound nice saying my name."

I blush and ponder for a few seconds wether that I should answer him or not.