the kids aren't alright | brallon a.u | dallon's song |

You Deserve The Stars

Chapter Summary:
Dallon tries his best to keep happy thoughts in his head all throughout the day.(Even though he has to go to therapy and communicate with people all day.)

In reality, the darker thoughts are getting even bigger in his mind, to the point where it is too much for him.

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The next morning, I felt great, physically, but there was a part of my heart that was hurting, it was burning almost. But, I was going to have my first date with Brendon, and it will be with Alex and Jack I know that, but I feel like I can trust them, I am their "sweet child" after all.

So today, is going to be a day of happy thoughts. Which leads me to my first point on my agenda; attempt to make breakfast for Brendon. I slip out of bed, leaving a small kiss on Brendon's shirtless back, and walk down to the kitchen. I grab the ingredients to make banana pancakes; pancake mix, eggs, bananas, milk and vanilla extract (to make the pancakes sweet) . I start to get to work, grabbing the bowls and adding all ingredients in. At that same time, cutting up potatoes for hash browns.

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After I finish making his breakfast, I write a small note, saying that I loved him and I made him breakfast. I go upstairs, grab my clothes for the day, and grab my make up from the drawer. Once I have all my things in the restroom, I walk to Brendon and whisper into his ear.

"Hey, B, I made you breakfast. It's downstairs." I whisper into his ear, rubbing his shoulder. He yawns and stretches out, bawling up the sheets in his hand, lightly smiling. "Did you eat already babe?"

I nod and give him a small, he sits up, his back popping as he does so. He stands up and pulls my waist to him, "I love you, Dal." I lean in for a kiss and he kisses back, it was short but sweet and I give him a small giggle. He smiles as he lets go of my waist and kisses me again before leaving.

Once he is downstairs, I walk into the restroom, I fall to my knees in front of the toilet. I open the lid up, and gag out the remains from the morning until I am heaving nothing but liquid, until I feel a little bit better about my weight. After I'm finished, I strip myself of my clothes and step into the shower.

I loved taking hot showers, I know they were bad for your skin, but the hot water was a way of relapsing if I didn't want to harm myself.

" When routine bites hard,

And ambitions are low,

And resentment rides high,

But, emotion won't grow,

And we're changing our ways,

Taking different roads,

Love, Love will tear us apart again!"

I hear a new voice sing,

"And love, love will tear us apart again!

Lo-ove! Love will tear us apart, agaaiin!

Love, love will tear us apart again!"

I turn around to see Brendon stepping into the shower, giving me a small smirk as he does, taking small glances at my buttock. I am them fully aware that our cock are brushing each other, and I thought I would start freaking out, I would go nuts because we were both naked, but I felt safe. I felt comfortable.

He starts to kiss my collar bone, and I stretch my neck to allow him more space to roam. He pulls my leg up and I jump up to wrap my legs around him. He groans as I accidentally hit my buttock with his cock. "Sorry." I whisper through the kiss.