I Found Home

Chapter 37

Kane

I stand by the counter , a glass of whiskey in front of me . I'm staring down at it contemplating drinking or smashing it against the wall .

Alcohol is my last solution to shut down annoying and persistent thoughts . However even that isn't working . I've had my fair share of drinks just last night . I could've kept going on if it weren't for that fucker Ethan and Ellie , who by the way was there before me .

I remember sitting at the bar stool in front of Ethan who was being reluctant about serving my drinks and kept having that look that insinuated his need to throw me out of the place .

He can be a dick sometimes .

Ellie didn't notice my arrival as she sat on a nearby table sipping from a grin and focusing on her phone . I remember that I went to sit with her after two rounds of whiskey , what I don't remember is what happened afterwards .

Although Ethan assured me there was no touching or kissing or any form of physical contact since he's been keeping an eye on me , he also didn't fail to express his disappointment at me not seizing a chance to get over Hannah .

I'm still angry at her , but it doesn't mean I don't miss her .

I haven't seen or heard from her since yesterday and it already feels like a long time has passed .

If she somehow knows about that too ... Knowing her bad temper I don't even want to think of that possibility .

I scrub a hand through my face as if trying to erase the tension , then I look out the window , watching the rain pour down on our town although it's summer and we've had enough of rain and snow by now . Though this rain is not that intense , plus the weather is still warm enough , the last rays of sunshine retreating back to illuminate some other part of the world , birds taking shelter on trees' leaves while the usual commotion of the day shifts into calmness and peace .
That's the good thing about rain , it chases and cleanse .

I grab the glass about to throw it away when someone knocks on the door .

I put it down again as I reluctantly walk to open .

And there she is .

Her clothes sticking to her body aligning her curves and showing her hard nipples through the cloth , the sight causes a shiver to go through my spine and straight to my cock that's been starving for months , her hair soaked and dripping , her legs somehow smudged with mud while she stands there , breathing heavily as she looks up at me with those brown eyes .

Just her presence was enough not to only shut down my thoughts , but the entire world around me . All I'm able to focus on is this girl , standing in front of me and robbing out my breaths and heartbeats the more she keeps staring at me with those eyes .

She takes a step towards me and I step back letting her in and closing the door behind her , without breaking eye contact or even blinking .

« I was afraid ... I'm never afraid of loosing people ... aside from mom there was nobody I cared about enough to be afraid of their loss ... »

The more she speaks the more tempted I am to grab and pull her to me , to take her away from this town and everyone , to erase every bad memory in her head only to replace them with better ones of us, side by side and heart to heart .  « I'm not used to this ... to being loved or cherished the way you do ... I didn't want to loose it but most of all ... » She takes a step towards me , palming my face between her small soft hands . « I didn't want to loose you ... » She swallows looking down while I only keep staring down at her in awe . « I don't know how to trust , how to let my guards down or how to stop being paranoid ... but I can try ... »
Her eyes meet mine again , water drips down her thick black lashes as her beautiful doe eyes fixate me with that look that could bring me down on my knees for her . « I can learn to trust you with my life and heart and everything ... because I love you more than I am capable of expressing ... »