I Found Home

Chapter 41

Hannah

The crisp air of June caresses my cheeks softly as I stretch my arm out of Melissa's car , although it smells of alcohol and cookies , there is still that lingering feeling of peace among the chaos raging all over Tolom and especially in the center of town , where many clubs and bar are forming a miniature of Las Vegas in here .

Melissa is blasting music as loud as it could get , who knew my very sophisticated architect sister could be so wild ? Apparently she and I have more in common than just a father .

I've been spending more time with her , since she knows everything she never judged me , just stood by my side and let me cope with my pain on my own .

When I finally mustered the courage to ask her how she found out , her answer kind of plunged the knife in my heart deeper .

The night of my birthday , Haze was with Paget , he sensed something weird after hearing her phone call with me , he started asking questions about my whereabouts as he realised that she was covering up for me so that I can go somewhere , he told Melissa about his suspicions and they begun their Sherlock Holmes journey together , following and stalking me until they saw Kane one day picking me up in his car .

The worse though is that Paget didn't tell Haze because she wanted to as I thought , she was forced to admit the truth when he confronted her , which means she did protect my secret well .

Due to my shame I couldn't even go apologise , not that it would matter , she would never forgive me . Plus Haze has been like an armor around her , forbidding me from coming close to his girlfriend when he knew that I hurt her , he stated that her state of mind is fragile due to the hurtful words I said to her , but she's holding up .

I didn't want to worsen her mental health so I stayed away , no matter how much I miss her , her ridiculous fashion talk and obsession with Britney Spears , I miss her presence and the way she gave me strength . I miss her friendship .

« ... or have some tan in Los Angelos beaches , what do you think ? » Melissa's words snap me out of my thoughts .

I blink and turn towards her , trying not to show that I didn't hear the entirety of her words so I just nod although I have no idea what I'm agreeing to . « Yeah , it sounds good . »

She tilts her head and gives me an incredulous look as she stops at the red light , her sunglasses hiding her deep blue eyes . « Someday , I'm going to make you agree to adopting a dog with all the zoning out you're doing . »

I shake my head and look out of my window again , my feet propped up and my elbows on the window as I relax .

A week ago , I graduated .

My mom is making preparations for me to move to New Jersey next year from now .

I honestly can't wait to leave , but my mom will be completely alone in here and the idea isn't the least pleasant . Yet , Melissa promised to keep an eye on her .

Maybe I made my peace with my sister , but mom is still not happy to have her around . The only reason she says nothing is me , she is noticing the change in me , she is worrying and she started coming to my room at night to check up on me . I hate to be the reason of her worry , the thing that keeps her thoughts perched up awaiting a disaster thrown in her way .

It's been a tough period of time , it's like being pushed into a dark cavern with no way out , and whenever I try to walk , tiny stones dig into my feet making me bleed and forbidding me from moving or fighting .

He didn't stop though .

Kane , I mean .

He tried reaching me through calling and texting nonstop until I blocked him , he changed his number and attempted the same so I changed my phone number .