Envious Desire /bkdk/ College AU

CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

Izuku

He's already in my room with his arms crossed and I close the door behind me.

"Can you tell me now what you're doing-" And he cuts me off once again.

"You know how worried I was? Not answering my texts or calls? I didn't know where you ended up last night! Don't fucking do that. I swear to god Deku."

"I'm sorry, okay? I just didn't feel like it. I was drunk and you're the one that left." I cross my arms too to look intimidating and stand my ground.

"We don't do that okay! We fucking don't. If I call or text you, you answer me even if you're fucking drunk! I had no god damn clue if you'd come home safe? How you came home? Nothing!"

"You don't get to control me! If you wanted me to be safe so badly, why didn't you stay and drive me home like we'd planned? You've been acting so strange!"

"I couldn't fucking take it anymore. You know how easily jealous I get because your gorgeous as fuck and everyone could try to step out of line! And still you decide to dance with everyone and even fucking Sero, who you know I don't trust! And to top it off, you give me a fucking lap dance for everyone to see what should only be for me eyes and then have the nerve to take my hands off of you."

"I was just having fun! They're our friends. Friends, not crushes or people who would ever like me like that."

"You're wrong. You're a fucking goddess. Everyone could try what's only mine to worship."

"Do you not trust them or do you just not trust me? Because you act like I can't make my own choices!"

"I trust you but not when you're drunk!"

"I would never." Tears spark in my eyes. This feels toxic, it's literally about our friends.

"You have." And that hurts me deeply, because then I realize that its true.

"Y-you mean the day I got drugged."

"You wanted the attention so you accepted it from a man who eventually drugged you."

"But-"

"I know you were upset back then because of my past, but that's my fucking past, someone I'm not and wish I could erase but I can't Izuku. And now I don't trust a single soul around you because I wasn't around back then! I wasn't fucking around when you were most vulnerable and got hurt."

"Kacchan-" I take a step towards him as he frantically moves.

"I left thinking you would follow me but you didn't. It threw me off even though it really shouldn't have. You are indeed not my property but you are my boyfriend who I am very possessive about and care about deeply. So I'm asking you again, is that really what you want? Do you even want me like this? Having a full breakdown because I don't know if you're safe or where you are?"

"Stop it, please. Don't question if I want you, please don't. I feel broken when you're not around. Insecure, lonely and so much more. When you left yesterday I couldn't help but ache for you, you as a person, for your soul and mind. So I drank it away and it wasn't good or fun for me at all. Even when Kirishima walked me home, all I could think about was you. I just really wasn't ready to have a confrontation drunk in the middle of the night with you over the phone. I'm crazy for you and it's scaring me Kacchan." I'm crying in my stupid ass pajamas.

He takes a deep breath and makes eye contact with me before wrapping his arms around me and pulling me into his warm embrace. I sob in his shoulder and he's gripping the back of my shirt so tight. "I'm crazy for you too but I don't want to stop. You are my person, Izuku."