finding ourselves again

chapter 5

       Bella pov

I was slammed with a memory returning and all I could let it play out in its twisted fucked up from.

I couldn't move or do anything! He was right I was making a fucking point to Stanley about my fucking best friend.

I closed my eyes and started singing because I couldn't tell him the words yet.

Take time to realize
That your warmth is
Crashing down on me
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you
No, it's never gonna be that simple
No, I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'd never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other, now
Take time to realize
Oh, oh, I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
Take time to realize
This all could pass you by
Didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you
No, it's never gonna be that simple
No, I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other, but
It's not the same
No, it's never the same
If you don't feel it, too
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized
If you just realize what I just realized
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now
Realize, realize, realize, realize

"You remember something just in a twisted way didn't you Punch?" I nodded my head and I squeezed my eyes tight as the tears fell and I was shaking my head really fast and I was pounding my fucking fists into the floor.

I rolled over and buried my face as I lost it the fucking floor.

"I believe you Mason!" I told him and I felt his hand on my back.

"I knew you would. It would just take you time is all, come here Punch!" I just went and impacted into my safe place.

"I got you Punch your safe in my arms baby!" I tightened my arms around him and really lost it when he called me that again.

I buried my face into his neck and secured myself to him.

"Shh! I got you baby!" I actually fell back asleep in his arms.

I woke up and I was inside the truck and my head was on Mason's lap and he was driving now.

"Hey baby! You've been asleep for hours now! Do you feel better now?" I nodded my head and rolled over on my back and reached out for his hand.

He intertwined his fingers with mine and I brought it down to me.

"Is that what you wanted baby?" I nodded my head and snuggled into his hand.

"You needed the touch didn't you?" I nodded my head. "It's because our connection is static isn't it?" I nodded my head again.

"I get it now with the touch for you especially now baby!" I moved only my eyes and looked up at him and he only moved his eyes and looked down at me really quick and then looked at the road again.

"I know baby! It will take both of us time! But it don't mean we both don't feel it for each other does it Punch because I do for you!" I lightly tapped my hand over my heart and pointed to him.

"I know you do too! I know when we're ready we'll say again to each other. How about we give each another chance what do you say and be my girlfriend again please?" I looked down and thought about that a second and looked up at him and smiled that new smile and nodded my head.