finding ourselves again

chapter 30

       Edward pov

I had to pull over and restart her heart again. "Come on baby! Please stay with me." I finally took off driving again but I had to stop again and restart again and I leaned over the steering wheel just losing it again.

For some reason I felt like I was fighting a battle right now! I start her heart and it's like something hits it and kills her over and over again on me.

I grabbed the mic! "This is a fucking order and I want my brother found and I want my sister interrogate by sunshine and ordered not to go into any modes and my brother ordered to have all control over my sister damn it someone keeps stopping my mates heart and I keep having to restart it! I want it to fucking stop even if my brother has to deliver the punishment on my own sister and that's a fucking order!" I threw the mic and covered my mouth with the back of my hand.

"Daddy there is a special place you can take momma on the property and no one will find you expect me and Wade we will bring you supplies daddy please take momma there daddy!" She gave me directions and you could tell she was losing it.

I picked up the mic. "I promise sweet heart I will take Momma there daddy loves you sweetheart keep safe for me and make sure the twins are safe please!" I told her.

"I will daddy we promise you and we love you Daddy so much!" I covered my mouth with the back of my hand again except I had the mic in my hand.

Tears were still falling and I finally hung up the mic and went the way she told me and I had to pull over a few times and restart Punch heart again.

But just before I got there I couldn't get Punch heart to start.

"No, no no! Come on BELLA DON'T DO THIS FIGHT COME ON BABY!" I pulled her up into my arms and just held her close to me and just drove to the rest of the way there holding her against me.

All I could do is lose it! Because all I felt is her being killed. This time I couldn't restart heart and I hope I wasn't too late now.

I don't want to have to take her back to the island and have to leave her there for good because I would never leave that island again without her. I even take the kids with me.

I make damn sure Stanley couldn't get ahold of me. I would be with her even it was in her soul form because that's all I have  left of her but we couldn't be together anymore.

I got there and I gently laid her down on the truck seat and I cupped the side of her face and closed my eyes as more tears fell.

"Just keep your soul here baby please!" I told her and I got out of the truck and started setting up camp.

I even got to hide our tent in a group of trees and once I had the bed set up I went and got her and laid her down on the bed and went back to setting up camp and I made a campfire next to the tent and made me some coffee and I sat down and started drinking some.

I saw the lagoon well it wasn't a lagoon it was different. A waterfall was falling into though and I finally looked around and got up and looked around.

"Are you fucking kidding me right now!" I walked over to the water and kneeled down and put my hand into the water and pulled it out really fast.

I looked around again. "Native land! This is a spiritual place protected!" I hurried and ran and scooped up Punch and carried her out into the water and gently laid her into the water.

"God I hope this works!" I put my hands over her heart this time on her skin.

"Come please work!" I started crying and closed my eyes as I tapped into her power and zapped her heart and I fell over taking her into my arms just losing when her heart finally restarted for me and she took her first breath of air again.