hello, phil,
i hope you realise you made a bad decision. i really love you, i cant believe you didn't see that. i love you so much that it physically pains me that you are no longer mine. i cry myself to sleep every night because of you. i just wish i could wrap my arms around you as we sleep or have you wrap your arms around me. i miss you so much. but i also hate you, i just want to die because all the self hate i have for myself. wasn't i good enough for you, phil? is that why you left me? did you finally get sick of me? was every "i love you." a lie? i hope it wasn't.
but i really hope you're okay, phil. i hope you aren't with anyone else, though. if i ever seen you down the street with another person, i would probably cry.. i bet you'd find joy in that. my pain. is it funny for you, phil? is my pain a joke? was my love for you a joke? was our whole relationship a joke to you, phil?
you know what? fuck you.
- your ex fiancé, dan howell.
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letters :: phan
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