The First Monsoon

𝟐𝟐} 𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐃𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐦𝐦𝐚

The moment our eyes met, I knew something was going to happen. I got this strange feeling in my chest, signaling me about something unknown. I almost believed that the event was not going to occur peacefully or that something even worse was going to happen until I saw her ignoring me.

My grumpy boss had been avoiding me throughout the event. At the start, when she was on the stage and our eyes met, she held my gaze for a considerably longer than required time period, and to say that I didn't like it would be a white lie. I loved it. The way she was looking at me, scanning me from head to toe as if trying to sketch me into her mind, I felt all the air leaving my lungs, leaving me breathless.

Her siren eyes are so forbiddingly addictive. One can just gaze at them and be called a sinner. And not just for any regular crime. The sin would be to dare to lay your eyes on the most alluring, impeccable, and yet, the most illicit creation of God.

Aisa kya ho jata hai mujhe jab jab tumhe dekhta hu. Na khud ka hosh rehta hai na duniya ka khayal karta hu. Bewajaha, bechain- bekaraar rehta hu. Sochta kuch hu, kuch or hi keh deta hu. Na din ko chain hai na raato ka karaar bharta hu.

Ye kya rishta hai mera-tumhara? Kyou tumhara you'n nazrein churana dil dukha raha hai? Kyu tumhari ye nazarandazi bechain kar rhi hai. Jee chahata hai ki tumhe seene se laga lu. Tumhara chahera hatho mei lekar tumhare gaalo ko sehlaou, or phir puchlu tumse: Ki Kis baat ki narazgi hai? Kya dil dukhaya hai maine? Ya koi khata ho gyi mujhse? Bus ek baar meri taraf dekhlo., sirf ek baar..

"Sirf ek baar..."

(What happens to me whenever I see you? I am neither conscious of myself nor do I care about the world. I remain restless without any reason. I think one thing, but say something else. There is no peace during the day, nor do I feel fulfilled during the night.

What is this relationship between me and you? Why does you stealing glances from me hurting me so much? Why is this ignorance of yours making me anxious? I feel like hugging you to my chest. Holding your face in my hands and caressing your cheeks, and then asking you- What are you angry about? Did I hurt your heart? Or did I commit some mistake? Just look at me for a second, just for once.. )

"MAHI!!" I was brought back to reality by a hard shake. I frantically looked around, looking here and there when my eyes landed on Kaurav. He looked at me with questioning eyes, as I tried to compose myself.

"What is wrong with you? I've been calling you for minutes now! Where are you lost, yaara? And what were you whispering?" he said.

I immediately straightened myself, pushing away all the unwanted thoughts that were revolving around in my mind. I shook my head, muttering a little nothing. Kaurav looked at me with a doubtful expression, clearly unconvinced by my answer, but when I didn't elaborate, he decided not to press it further.

"Listen yaar. I'm feeling kind suffocating here. Let's head back now." I told him because clearly my mood was spoiled and I was not at all liking it here anymore.