Forbidden Feelings

Never Have I Ever

   "The rules of this game are simple, if you've done it, you drink. If you haven't, you don't." I nod, understanding the rules of the game. "I'll start," Cole says, "never have I ever drunk dialed my ex." Josh takes a shot and I laugh. "My turn," I look between them both thinking of how I can get them both to take a shot, "never have I ever had sex." It's weak, I know. But now they are both one shot higher than I will be. 

   "Never have I ever kissed my friend's sister." Oh shit. Cole looks at the shot Josh poured him, "um."

   "You have to take a shot, don't you?" My eyes widen at Josh's words and Cole takes the shot. "I'm out. I'll be back later, try not to screw my sister while I'm gone." Cole and I both stare at him shocked and the door slams shut. "What the hell?" He had to have seen us, we hear his tires screech against the pavement, "he's going to a bar." 

   "How do you know that?"

   "He does that when he's mad." I nod, I don't know my brother as well as I thought I did. "You don't think he's going to-."

   Cole cuts me off, "no. He won't." I feel relief in my chest, we lost our dad to a drunk driver and the thought of Josh being the driver scares me. 

   "I'm gonna hop in the shower." I go upstairs to my room and grab out a pair of old sweat pants and a baggy tee-shirt along with a matching black set of bra and panties. I undress and try to turn the water on but the water in my bathroom isn't working so I have to shower downstairs. I don't bother to get dressed again so I wrap myself in a towel and head down to the basement. I walk as quietly as I can so Cole doesn't know I'm there. I turn on the shower and place my stuff down on the counter and hop in. The door creaks and I squeal. Footsteps come running, "what the hell?"

   "I'm sorry, the door made a noise and I got scared." I hear him chuckling at me and continue washing my hair. "The door doesn't stay shut princess." There's that word again, I feel a heat spread down in between my legs, it's like itch that can't be scratched. The door cracks again and I hear footsteps so I think he's gone, I open the curtain just enough to see the doorway which is clear, the door is cracked open since it doesn't shut. I start rubbing myself in hopes the aching feeling will go away. After what felt like forever of circling my clit, the rush comes through me and I finally feel relaxed and wash my body

   I yank the curtain open and grab my towel to wrap around myself but I see Cole on the couch staring at me. He couldn't have seen me, the curtain was shut. I get nervous, "do you maybe, not want to stare?" He smirks at me and stalks over to me. "Have a nice shower?" I nod nervously and grab my clothes but he is blocking the doorway so I can't go past him. "Do you mind?"

   He doesn't say a word but steps out of the way for a second then holds my waste and puts his other hand to rest beside my head. My breath gets caught and a shiver crawls up my back. I'm staring at his eyes, his green eyes that have a familiar darkness. Just fucking kiss me already. I refuse to make the first move, he can see what he is doing to me, it's like he enjoys it. He is enjoying watching me squirm. He leans down to my ear and I can feel his breath on my neck, "if you need something, let me know." Oh my God, he did see me. Shit, I duck under his arm and run upstairs with my clothes in my free hand that isn't holding the towel. 

   As if he has the worst possible timing, Josh walks in and sees me, "Are you fucking kidding me?" He takes off down to the basement and I hear yelling, I shove my clothes on and run after the yelling that grows louder with each step. "Hey!"

   "Did he touch you?"

   "No! My shower wasn't working so he let me use yours. I'm still a virgin Josh." He breathes out heavily then looks back to Cole, "she better be telling the truth because so help me, I will-."

   "Josh. He didn't fucking touch me." He drops it and walks over to me, "a word?"

   "Sure," I walk into his room, "are you telling me the truth?"

   "Yes, I think." 

   "What do you mean, you think?" I don't know if I'm still considered a virgin if I touch myself. "I mean, he didn't touch me." He rubs his face, "what?" I seal my lips shut and he realizes what I'm saying, "gross man, get out!" I walk out of his room and see Cole smiling at me, "what are you smiling at?"

   He mocks what I said, "he didn't touch me." I send daggers at him, "shut up you prick. You are the reason I-." I shut my mouth before finishing my sentence realizing Josh was behind me. "The reason you what?" 

   "Nothing. I'm hungry, I'm gonna head out to see if Noah is at the shops." I said that specifically to make Cole mad. "Okay." I think Josh has finally given up, "just, use protection."

   "If it comes to that, I will," I smile at Cole as if I won some sort of game. 

   I went back upstairs to get changed again. I put on a pair of denim shorts with a white tube top that only covers my breasts along with a green, knitted cover up that ties in the front. I grabbed a pair of my socks and sneakers then ran downstairs and out to my car. I finally relaxed and started making my way to the city, I lied before. I'm not going to the market, I'm getting my belly button pierced.