A Cowboy's Love (Ford Brothers Book #3)

Chapter Five: Jackson

It has been days since I have seen or heard from Amelia and I am beyond worried for the woman. All I have been able to get out of Maddie is that Amelia has been working more hours and taking care of her girls. Maddie has not watched Kate in couple of days and I am hoping that mean she is feeling better. I have been kicking myself for not getting her number and I have been too chicken to ask Maddie.

That is where I am headed now. Lucas said we were having lunch at his house. I am going to suck it up and ask Maddie for Amelia's number. I need to know that she is okay. I have been worried sick about Amelia and her girls. I have never had this strong need and urgency to see someone as bad as I do her. Since we spent that little time together I knew I was done for. She is healing the hole Ellie left inside of my heart. I never thought that I would be able to move on from her.

I know that Amelia is scared, but I want this and I know she does too. I saw it in her eyes at the bar. She wanted to be with me. She wanted to be wrapped up in my arms. I am going to have to fight for her. Show her how good we can be together; how perfect our pieces fit. I want to be the reason she smiles. The reason she laughs. I want to be her everything.

I know that we have not known each other long, but I am starting to believe in love at first sight. My two older brothers are proof that it can happen. I knew when I first saw her I knew that she is special. I have not been able to stop thinking about her. Whenever she is close to me my heart races, my hands get sweaty, and I get tongue tied. I have always been able to talk to girls. I was never shy around them, but Amelia is a different story. I worry about if I am saying the right thing or doing something she would approve of. I care what she thinks of me and my heart beats for her.

Walking into Lucas' house I noticed Kate asleep on the couch. She must have had a bad day. I could not help but stop and stare at the little girl. Her eyes fluttering in her sleep and small snores fill the room. Walking to the couch I pulled the blanket over her shoulders and tucked her in. I do not know why I did that, but it seemed like the right thing to do. In that moment staring down at her I knew I had to fight for this family. I want to be the one to take care of them. I want to protect them from the cruel world that we live in. I want to be a part of this family.

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I did not feel any better when I left my brother's house. Maddie told me somethings about Amelia. She has been working overtime and having little time for the girls. I have so many questions for her; that I need the answers for. The only person I know that can help me is mom. I just hope that she can help me more than Lucas did.

This family needs help and I want to be the one to help them. I want to be there every step of the way. I want to be the one to care for them. The ones I fight for. I cannot not get them out of my head. They are in my mind every second of the day. I am falling in love with Amelia and she is still a stranger to me. She is afraid to open up to me. I hope that one day I can break her walls downs.

Maddie would not give me her phone number or her address. I have to do this on my own and I will. I know she is at the diner right now. I just need some advice from mom before I miss my chance. I do not want to mess this up before it even starts. I do not want her for one day, but for a lifetime. I believe that she is my other half. She has saved me without even knowing it.

Walking through mom's front door I can smell something good cooking. Mom has always been a good cook and baker. I remember coming home from school smelling the fresh baked cookies she would make us growing up. The smell takes me back to my childhood. A smell that always brings a smile to my face. I found mom in the kitchen putting more cookies into the oven. There are racks all over the bar covered with fresh cooling cookies. Is she planning to feed an army?