Accidental Ruination

Chapter 34| Feelings

Chapter 34| Feelings.

Stacey.

       "We have a new lead, " Dyletto informed after dinner, his lips tugged in a little smile which brought a smile to my own lips.

"You do? "

"Yes, we do, the culprit is one person, however he has people helping him and he has a rich father, he will be caught soon," he confirmed, flashing me a beautiful smile, the joy in his eyes was nothing like I had seen.

"That's great, " I smiled brighter, inhaling the fresh air of the night, so natural, so serene and peaceful.

" finally, I can have my hands on that bastard, after all these years, " he jaw clenched, even his fist tightened.

I reached out and touched his feet lightly, " he will be caught soon but you have to be careful, he could know of our findings already, what if he tries to hurt you?  "

He looked at my hands on his then my face, he nodded. " I will, you should be too, " he tucked away a strand of my hair and rubbed my cheek with his thumb. " you could also get hurt, "

"I will, " I replied, leaning in to his touch, we were seated by the pool in his house, I had been spending most of the night in his house since the past one month, working together on our sister's case in our own way.

" you seem tense lately, " he said, "and you eat less and sleep less, Ed told me you rarely stop working and when you do you will be in the empty room, crying, why is that? "

I went quiet, moving away from the warmth his palm provided, "I am just busy that's all, " I lied unable to tell him the truth, unable to tell him that guilt had been eating through me these past weeks.

"And the cries, "

"I miss them, " I cracked, " I miss Tomi, my Mom, my Dad, I miss every single one of them, "

"I know, "I bursted into an heart wrenching sob, he pulled me into a hug and I gripped his tee, sobbing harder.

By the time I had cried the tears in my eyes, I was exhausted, "I have to go, it's late, " I stated, releasing his tee.

Dyletto nodded, " you can stay for the night, "

"No, I can't, I have a lot of work to do and... "

"A lot of tears to cry?  No, I am not letting you leave like this, you are not in the right mind to drive a car, "

"But... I..., "

He gave me a glare, " if you don't care about your life, think about Edna's, she deserves more than dying young and miserable due to her mother's stubbornness, "

"Why do you care?! " I snapped, irritated to no end, I was already on my feet, glaring at him. I wasn't irritated because he cared, I was because I hated it, I hated the fact that he cared for me, his care made me feel emotions I had never felt before, emotions I shouldn't feel for him and I was tired. Most of all, I feared, I feared getting too attached to him due to my feelings as I knew it wouldn't end well, I will end up getting hurt.

he went quiet, "Why are you quiet? Why  huh? i need an answer!" I pushed him, " stop caring for me, you hated me all along and now you care?" I queried, my voice an octave quieter." I don't want that, I don't need it, hate me, be mean to me, call me names, call me shameless, that's what I want, because this, you caring is too much of a punishment for me," I cleaned my teary face with the back of my sweater and walked away.