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36. Advit

"what do you mean?"

I was standing there still, shocked out of my wits, not being able to comprehend anything that came out of my mouth.

I have to admit I had forgotten about leaving her alone.

I stood there looking at her, her eyes wet with guilt, regret, sadness, and confusion.
It sent shivers down my spine because of the way she was looking at me.

I took a few steps towards her, "Shivani, I am a moron, an idiot and no matter how much I try to change the fact, I will not be able to"
I sat beside her, keeping her close with her hands in mine.

"I am an immature, fucked up adult probably more fucked up than I was when I was a teenager, I had no communication skills or the courage to confront you or the maturity to be open about my feelings and not throw them at you like a waver"
I wipe her tears with my thumb gently

"Shivani I love you, and that won't change the fact that I left you, I abandoned you when you so gladly opened your heart for me and any kind of explanation would do justice to you but I would still wanna explain it, only if you want to hear it"

"yes," she said very faintly not looking at me, my hand resting on her cheek.

"you know, things have not been good between my dad and I.
I have always tried to become the son he always wanted but what I couldn't see was that he was crazy, dangerous and fucked the hell out of me.
He would tell me things, no I should say he would manipulate me into thinking that all the things said by him were true and I was sorry I was a fool but he did the same thing on his deathbed.
He emotionally blackmailed me, he had influenced me so much at the time that........I cannot even explain it properly"
I let out a heavy sigh

"I get it, I do, you were right I had been blind....now...now that I think about it, I had been blind and selfish, I only saw what was going on with me and nobody else"
I felt empty, empty enough to feel anything at all.

"i.."
she said, her voice very faint, "I thought we were becoming friends but then you..."

"I don't wanna be just friends....but it's too complicated to be anything else"
I freed her hand from my touch too repulsively, did I say something offensive?

"I need to go finish up some things, a clean up and be done with you!"
I----
What?????
Be done with me??
I don't understand any of this one bit.

I got up, and a sharp pain shot up in my head, I lay down on the couch, staring into nothingness, the moving fan on the ceiling, the silence was eating at me, in no time everything got blurry, dark and I fell into a deep sleep.

...............

something rang, a sharp bell, the sound came from the device vibrating in my blazer pocket.
I was my lawyer, and the hearing isn't until Friday, three days from now what does he need?

"Sir the case has been dropped"
he spoke over the phone.

"which case, you moron!"
I blurted out anything that came out of my mouth
not caring about anything he said to me.

"sir???"

what did he say??
I couldn't understand anything

"excuse me what?!"

"yes sir the case has been dropped, that is all the charges have been dropped and we are free to start any kind of project, that's your land!"

the phone fell from my grip, I felt as if everything was tied up with a loose string........the string was now broken.

I should have been happy, happy about everything but I was not.

I need to get done with you,
her words echoed in my ears.

did she drop the case because she wants to be done with everything or because........

what was happening???
I immediately dialled her number from my list of rarely contacted,
it was not my fault.

"did you drop the case?"
I asked, my voice unintentionally loud.

"yes"
she replied in a very affirmative tone as if she didn't want anyone to hear.
"I'll tell you the rest when I come home" she added and cut the call in haste.

I wanted to know more but just like my mother
her she doesn't like conversing through phone calls.

.............

"I have been waiting for the past hour, where have you been?
What's going on??"
I bombarded her with questions on her arrival.
she looked very dull, the colour on her face was gone.
she was pale as fuck.

she took a seat beside me, "yes I did get him to drop the case"
she added in an affirmative tone again.

"how, and why?"

"what do you mean why, it was important, he was in the wrong, he was the one who forged everything"
I saw something in her eyes that scared me, through and through!

something I used to see in Sanjana and Natasha Didi's eyes all the time, the thing that I feared the most!

Sanjana Singh Rana, my elder sister, nobody talks about. and her best friend Natasha Singhania, nobody wants to talk about.
she wasn't at my wedding, don't work your little brains too much.

"What did you do"
I asked in a faint voice, scared that she would lash out at me.

"Nothing, I just......I told him that if he doesn't drop the case I'll reveal that his father was one of the chairmen involved in the treasury case and also leak the video recording of them having a very private convo in my office to the judge, then guess who will be charged for an offence, him!"

she said without wasting another breath, looking so proud of herself>

"that bloody bulldog, what is wrong with him?"
she added getting up and throwing her purse across the room.

"This was all for nothing"
I said out loud, wanting to laugh at whatever happened today.

"Can you atleast explain"
I added
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