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42. Shivani

“Yes”
My voice was low, I was feeling a plethora of emotions, it felt like I was going to explode. My mind knew, I knew that words that came out of my mouth were the truth but I felt like my heart disagreed. I tried shaking all the unnecessary thoughts and feelings.

“Really? This is absurd, you are just scared” he scoffed, his voice rough. A hint of vitality in his eyes was evident. It felt as if his gaze pierced through my heart and melted the strong stride that crushed all my morals with just a breath.

“Scared me, scared of what?” my voice was a little higher than it was before, my mind went blank suddenly. No thought mattered in that moment, ego was pushed and self respect was pulled. My inside burned with unheard feelings and unheard thoughts. It wasn't rage, it wasn't incense and it was hate.
It was indifference.

“Sacred of your feelings, feelings for me. You are too scared to get hurt again and in my opinion you have developed commitment issues” he was soft, endearingly soft. It did things to me before and still is doing things to me. There are moments that the feelings that we shared quite a few years ago reappear making my heart ache, this is one of those. There are moments when I fear everything between us ceased to exist but the next second he proves me wrong.

“Shivani!” he held both of my hands, coming closer, “ i know, i know that you are scared, scared of thinking that i'll hurt you again but we can't continue living like this. Alone in our own home, in our heads when we are together but us in each other's head when we are apart. I am not asking you to love me. I am just asking you give us a shot, will you continue living like this beside me all my life”

“Then maybe we should get a divorce!” words came out of my mouth smoother than they should have. The expression in his eyes changed. The shine in them disappeared and flames emerged as his jsw clutched.

“If you need to be alone for a while you can be alone here, ride the gondola and clear your head. THERE WILL BE NO DIVORCE”

His head dipped, eyes met mine. I saw the fierce flames in his eyes with much more clarity than before. They were stronger than ever.

“Let's do one thing” his voice soft again, the warmth had returned. “Why don't you sit back and relax? I do all the planning. I mean people go on dates, well have a vacation that's a date, like a datecation”

Curiosity and vulnerability flickered in his eyes, “fine, try atleast but i can't guarantee that i'll agree”

“Oh you'll agree darling i know it”
“Don't call me that!”

And that's how the air was clear again, even though i agree i shouldn't have said the word divorce but just like that we were okay again.
He’ll need to do somewhat more though.

………….

The gondola ride wasn't that fun. I was quiet, he was quiet and I did not like the view at all. Felt like i was riding in a boat in Delhi in monsoon when the roads were flooded.
No offence but NO!

His laptop was open, some files and some videos indicating that he was making an itinerary which was pretty much the first step.

Don't look! Don't look!

I dipped my head a little when i heard a voice from the restroom, “don't you dare look”

“Ok, ‘mr. plan the perfect datecation’”

“Don't sulk! be ready at 8, in the dress you almost flashed me in” he commented as a titillating smirk played on his lips, “i still daydream about that”
Crimson coated my cheeks.

“Can you not!” i yelled

“Can I not, what? Think about my wife?” his face inches away from mine, “in a dress that sent shivers down my spine” he whispered, something dark and dusky in his voice flickered as he teased me.

I did not say anything as he left the room. My hands went to my burning cheeks as I felt the warmth and the heat rising.
I had 2 hours to get ready, that dress meant something fancy. Was he taking me out on a fancy dinner?
Basic? Bland? Not a ceo type of date? NAH

……………

“The more the gloss the better”
I murmured to myself as I applied the pink liquid for the fifth time. My heart was throbbing like it would explode any second. Was I nervous? Maybe!

One question spiralled in my head all day. The one that I didn't have an answer to, the one that could ruin all of this or make my life. The answer to it could provide me all the warmth life had to offer or i could find myself lost in a snow storm in the middle of nowhere.

Lost in my train of thought, I evidently lost track of time, it was 30 mins past 8 and my phone was blazing with texts. Disdainful silence filled the room as I opened the texts.
A total of 17 ‘where are you’, mention of my name 7 times and ‘pls come to the lobby’ was mentioned 25 times.

COMING!!!!!

I stormed out of my room keeping the key card in my bag as my heels clicked against the marble floor.
To my surprise there was no one in the elevator, on a normal day I would have expected a liftboy but i did not have the time to think. I was not in my right mind. My body heat was at maximum and it was only rising, the air condition wasn't really helping. The elevator halted at another floor before it was about to stp in front of the lobby. 2 people covered from head to toe in black entered, a disdainful breeze came through with them. It made me undesirably uncomfortable, especially in that dress.

Their faces were barely visible, their aura was endearingly negative. One of them came and stood in front of me as I shifted in my place.

“Excuse me, blocking my way isn't a very nice way of charming me sir!”
I exclaimed, keeping a strong front even though my inside twisted with fear.

Before the next word came out of my mouth, the man behind me groped me with a funny smelling cloth in his hand, panic ran through my body. My body protested to fall into deep slumber but despite my efforts I was met with complete darkness.

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