Toxic love

poor girl

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I regreted so much. All because i felt so bad for the way nick was treated by his dad.

"Gigi. just go to your room." my mom looked disappointed it hurt me. tears filled my eyes but i ran upstairs before anyone saw me crying.

I went to my room before closing my door and laying down on my bed. Tears fell from my eyes.

I heard people come up the stairs so i closed my eyes and pretended to sleep.

"What am i doing wrong? Am i not being strict enough?" I heard my mom say. "niomi. Shes a Teenager. Shes gonna do these activities" my dad responded.

"Tom. You do realize what nick did to her right?" then they went in their room so i could no longer hear their conversation.

i heard my phone buzz. I looked at it.

'Nick: max talked crap about you. I was gonna tell you but i didnt wanna ruin the moment'

My heart fell.
i wanted to scream.
why is this so complicated?
Why is love so complicated?

Gigis pov*
I talked to max about how he talked crap about me. He tried saying he didnt at first but then he finally told the truth. I avoided him from that day on. Me and nick talk to eachother here and there but we arent close.

I was grounded though. Not because of what i did with my rapist but mostly because i totally disobeyed my parents rules.

As me and demi grew older we both had a whole bunch of boy problems but we all got through them.

April, 23 2023
Im now 17 and my dads popularity started growing with pre teens and teens in general. Everywhere i went people started recognizing more. But overall iam taking a break from boys and i havent been in a relationship since i was 16.

Im graduating in 2 months.

i woke up early for school. I'm not saying my alarmer woke me up. It was the sound of my mothers and fathers shouting that woke me up.

i got up from my bed and opened my door.

"then why did you fucking do it!?" My mom shouted

"I didnt mean to Niomi! Just drop it!" My dad shouted back.

"mom?" I said walking into the room rubbing my eyes.

my mom gave my dad a dirty look before turning to me. "hey, im sorry. did we wake you?" She asks innocently.

"no, is everything okay?"

"yes"
"yeah!"

they said at the same time.

"uhm..okay" i walked away and got ready for school.

i drove me and demi to school.

i was paying good attention since my finals where just months away.

my leg was bouncing up and down repeatedly and i was tapping my pencil on my desk.

the phone rang.

my teacher anwsered it

"hello"
"yeah she is"
"with her stuff?"
"oh god poor girl"
"Okay ill send her down"

I wonder who it is. I looked around the class trying to see if ill remember any student with family drama or just drama in general-
"Gigi" my teacher spoke
my eyes shot towards her.

"your being checked out. Dont worry about the assignment" 

i put my stuff in my bag and left. my mom didnt tell me they were taking me out of school?

i walked to the office and saw my dad and demi.

"what happend" i asked him
"its your mom. shes in the hospital"
i let out a soft gasp.
"gee she got into a car accident"
My heart started beating violently.

We got to the hospital and the nurse just sat us down and told us that no one was able to see her because of how much wires shes hooked up to.

Nyla and bill came too. They didnt want to bring aria though.
we stayed in the waiting room for 7 whole hours.

all five of us fell asleep in our chairs.

doctors started running into where all the patients where. Thats what woke us up.

the doctors were demanding immediate help.

we stood up and the nurse came up to us.

"her heart beat stopped." She said looking up at us.

my eyes widened.

"No!" Demi squeeled before hugging my dad.

"ill update you guys soon" she walked away.

I hugged my dad with demi.

my aunt started crying in my uncles arms.

I was going to graduate and i didnt even know if my mom was going to see me walk the stage.

my dad was fighting tears.

40 minutes later the nurse came out again.

we all stood up hoping she made it.

"im sorry. shes gone"

i felt like i was just shot in the chest. i was in shock and the sounds of my surroundings where on mute.

Until i returned to reality and heard my dad and demis crys.

My aunt started screaming and all my uncle did was try to comfort her.

i broke down into tears.

"you guys can go say your goodbyes ill lead you to her room." The nurse said before we all followed her.

once we got into the room i saw my moms lifeless body in the bed.

"oh darling" my dad rushed to the bed and started crying his eyes out.

"Niomi!" my aunt cried

We all started crying. i grabbed her cold hand and saw the bracelet i gave her when i was 6, her wedding ring and the tattoo demi told her to get.

the realization hit me that this was the last time i was going to see my mom near life. it was time to leave and my dad kissed her cheek one last time.

we went home all three of us.

and we had to get used to the fact it was going to continue that way for the rest of our lives.

Just the three of us.

my dad couldn't sleep alone and neither could we so me and demi brought our blankets out to the living room with my dad and we all slept with eachothers presence.

toms pov*
my wife is gone. my baby. my first and only love.

ill never look into her beautiful hazel eyes again.

my daughters are all i have left of her. i cried so much that night.the first night i slept without MY person.

the next day bill, nyla, aria, georg, gustav, luna, james and danny all came over to check up on us.

danny hugged gigi instantly.

i was so numb and my heart felt like it had bricks weighing it down.

the news found out.

the news
"last night we lost a well known guitarist in a band called 'ecstasy'. 33 year old Guitarist Niomi kim also known as the famous guitarist Tom kaulitz's wife was pronounced dead at the hospital at 5:16. Bill kaulitz, Tom kaulitz, Gianna kaulitz, Demi kaulitz and Nyla kim where seen coming out of the hospital in tears after finding out about the death of their love one."
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