Toxic love

i miss you

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It's graduation day.

i had my gown on and i was getting ready to go walk.

"Gianna kim kaulitz" they called out.

I got my diploma and a single tear fell down my cheek knowing my mommy wasnt in the crowd.

mostly people would be partying after graduation or loosing their virginity.

not me.

Loosing my mom made me realize how much i didnt want to grow up. I stayed with my dad and sister and went to the ocean.

"you did good" my dad smiled at me.

i smiled back. "your mom would be proud gigi" he added.

"i hope so" i sighed and looked at the sunset.

later on into the year i moved out. i got a three bedroom house. i gave a room to demi incase she wanted to crash at my place somtime.

i decided to help danny, luna and james with their music. It was a good job. i know they wish i was her.

i took demi to school every morning and helped her with her homework every night.

i visited my dad any time i could. For Christmas we visited grandpa and my mom.

i rested flowers on my moms grave.

"how i miss you" i said beneth my breath before tears slid down my cheeks as i looked up at the sky.
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