The death of an angelic sinner

A sisterly talk (journal pt 4)

Trigger warning: self-harm/suicide

After Lute had revealed herself, the hyperventilating angel managed to calm down a bit.

"Vaggie, we have to talk."

There was not a hint of humor in the angel's voice as Lute had been dead serious as she sat down beside vaggie.

"You know why I took you here?"
"So you can taunt me without anyone stopping you"
"Not today little sis..."

There was a hint of sadness in Lute's voice as she spoke, her mean and authoritarian attitude being replaced with a sweet and caring one. She knew her younger sister had been struggling, she had seen it, heard it, and not mentioning, smelled the blood after every relapse back in heaven

"Lute why did you come down here, it's not even extermination yet."
"I had a feeling.."
"Lute.....thank you"

Vaggie raised her legs to her chest wrapping her arms around them, her voice was shaking as she realized what her sister had meant with "I had a feeling."

"But how, how did you know.."

Lute took a deep breath before she spoke.
"Vaggie...lil sis. I don't know if you remember but a few years ago, you had attempted once before. It was a late October night when it happened, you were so done."

"I remember that it was the 28th....my birthday"

Vaggie gently smiled at her older sister remembering how she had saved her that night, before Lute blurted out.

"Vaggie I knew because..."

"You, you found the note didn't you?"

It felt like a rug was ripped from underneath her, lute had known she would attempt. She still remembers writing the notes...almost 3 years back at this point but she had mentioned on her note she would be gone on her "24th birthday". Even if physically she was and would always be 20, she still counted her birthdays...and her 24th...was today.

"You..you remembered"
"I'm not a monster Vaggie."

The small angel turned around, facing her older sister.

"I'm sorry.."
"don't apologize, you still being alive is all that counts."
"Vaggie, this may hurt a bit but just stay calm okay."
"What- what are you gonna-"

But before she could finish Lute had taken Vaggie's hand and putting some rubbing alcohol onto it. The small angel yelled out as the stinging begun, first only where the tissue was but it wasn't long until it traveled onto all of Vaggie's cuts, she begged for it to stop but lute wouldn't budge, carefully lute placed another alcohol soaked tissue on Vaggie's other arm.

"WHAT RHE ACTUALLY FUCK LUTE."
"I'm sorry Vaggie.."

Lute's heart broke as she heard her sisters cried, she wanted to pull back but she couldn't. Her sisters cuts had been bleeding to much.

"Lute, I don't wanna be alive anymore. Even afterlife sucks, I just want out."
"What do you mean by out"

A big sigh came out Vaggie's mouth as she looked down at her scars, which were being cared for by lute. She fetl the stinging disappear as she thought about what to say.

"Lute, would you be mad..if I.."
"Not at all sis, but please try to stay okay. As long as possible."
"I will, but it hurts, it just hurts so badly."

"We know love, but we're here. You're not alone."

By this time Antony and Charlie has reached the sight, Charlie's gentle voice soothing Vaggie as she laid her head down on Lute's chest.

"I love you guys,"

"We love you to vags"
A familiar voices echoes through the forest, it was Millie gun in hand she sat beside Vaggie.

"It's all gonna be okay, Where here for you."

(Present day)
"We ain't angry at you love"

Charlie whispered softy starting down at the tiny demon sleeping peacefully in her arms, unlike Nifty the big spider demon had stil been up. He remembered that night.

"You okay toots?"

"I will be, once we find out how to get you back to hell safely"

The prinses laid her head down against Anthony, her eyes feeling heavier as she slowly fell asleep.

"Goodnight princess."