When I first met Majorie, I didn't really like her. But maybe I was just protecting myself from her getting close. AS people close to me have hurt me before. I was afraid she would have done the same.
AS my father said you don't need a friend and I am only a disappointment. I was totally wrong once I let her in. I let her be my friend, but more like a sister to me, but I won't even tell her that . I didn't know there were nice people, and Majorie is one of the nicest persons you would ever meet .but I don't talk about personal stuff it better that way as my past is painful to talk about.
I have learnt to trust people with my heart . But I still have a very tight shild around my heart. I am still terrified she will hurt me. I need to trust her more. Trusting people is very hard for me to do. She doesn't know much about it better that way . I really didn't know when I decided to be nice.
I never knew I had a soft side. Maybe people aren't as bad as I thought. Majorie is probably the nicest person you meet in this world. But I won't even tell her it will bring up too many emotions, and I am not good at emotionals. She can be tough when she needs to be .
I still protect myself so much. Maybe I should be more open. But if I did, she would do what all people have done and hurt me. I trust her a little bit. May be I should trust people . I have always had a fear that everyone in this world is against me. I need to stop being an overthinker .
