Christmas is about family as I didn't have a happy family growing up . I never really felt like the holiday was any good . It's the time of the year I felt the lonely the most .But this year may be different . My father is so annoying dating someone who is half his age .
I think of going to Majories as I don't want to go to my father's. I hope she has wine so I can drown my sorrows . I started drinking at a young age to help deal with my home life and it how I cope. I can drink so my pain doesn't seem much .
We have now arrived at Majories house. I stepped out of the car with Winter, and I knocked on her door. She was very happy to see me she had a big smile. We went in . I am drinking a wine bottle through a straw.
My father is making shibhan on the border of directors. Like what was he thinking. I don't need enough people who are evil in my life. Them being a couple is a disaster. I will wait for the fallout. Sibhan has no idea who the man she is with.
Christmas is the time of year to be happy, but why inside am I still a mess. Maybe I should open up to Winter. I really hate emotions it's never been my strong point . I don't think I will.
My advice for sibahan would be to get far away from my father. All he does is hurt people. I never want to spend Christmas with him. Being in his house gives me a flashback of what he did to me my whole childhood. I could forget but I can't . I am lonely evern with Winter. Why am I am overthinker. Will I ever not feel so lonely.
