Everlasting Part Two

Dreams that forge reality

That night was the first time I had a dream about Deidara that didn't involve:

a. His funeral
b. His death
c. The loneliness that followed a and b

Instead he was lying next to me, his hand gently rested on mine. He was smiling at me, so sweetly. For a moment I even forgot that I was dreaming. And that was it, we just laid there. Wrapped up in the bliss of each passing moment we were together.

His eyes were the same piercing blue. Each curvature of his body, the same. Nothing had changed at all about him.

"I have missed you." I uttered.

He smiled, "Me too hn." But then suddenly his face took a more solemn turn, "but Mia... This isn't good."

I sat up.

"What're you saying?"

"This." he held up a mirror and my reflection nearly frightened me. I was not much but skin and bones, my skin had lost all color, my cheeks were sinking into my face. And my vibrant orange hair seemed to be fading into more of an ashy brown. However the scariest part of my appearance were my blood red eyes, reassuring me how much control my monster currently had over my life.

"You, hn."

His words caught me by surprise.

"You can't let my death continue to do this. Your sadness extends longer than what is healthy, and it is time to stop grief from consuming you."

He cupped his hand around my face and I rested it there, soaking in the decadence of this moment.

"You have to move on hn."

I opened my eyes and looked at him, he started deteriorating before me his skin turning to ash as he faded away.

"I-I know." I whispered, "but it's just hard being without you. You were the only person who accepted and loved me as I am."

"Then go find someone else hn." He liked at me tenderly, "you are not your monster."

I was stunned, each word flaking small pieces from my heart.

"It's time Mia, and you know that. It's what you need, and it's what I want hn." He took a big pause and then finally, "so go on...live." And then he kissed me, and I was drowning in it, grasping at each second as they flew by. Praying that I wouldn't wake and I could live in the snapshot of this moment. And then my eyes opened.

Tears spilled out everywhere, it was the first time I had cried in months. I wrapped my arms around myself, no longer denying the comfort I needed so bad. I shuddered, and climbed out of bed quickly.

I caught myself, for a moment, on the doorframe of my room catching my breath.

And then I walked quickly...

To find McKenna.